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I'm copying this over from my journal. I could really use something right now. Not sure what. :(
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I just had a talk with the director today. She basically said that I either need to come up with a plan to get my shit together or I will get demoted.
They're willing to work with me, but they need someone in my position that can do the job. I'm not. I couldn't even confess to her just how little of the job I'm doing.
And to tell the truth, the demotion would not be such a bad thing except for the fact that we desperately need the money and the fact that my wife would never let me live it down. With everything that's going on it would almost be a relief to have the responsibilities taken away from me.
I'm not used to failing. This will be my biggest failure ever. And I'm not even sure if I'm willing to fight it. My home life is to chaotic for me to be here when they need me. My meds are making me too sleepy and lethargic. And then there's just my depression.
Sigh.
I've hit a low. I'm not at the bottom. I'm looking over the ledge. The question is should I try to start climbing up, or jump.
I'll land on another ledge, I know. But jumping gets easy after a while, and it's a long, long, long way down.
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I just had a talk with the director today. She basically said that I either need to come up with a plan to get my shit together or I will get demoted.
They're willing to work with me, but they need someone in my position that can do the job. I'm not. I couldn't even confess to her just how little of the job I'm doing.
And to tell the truth, the demotion would not be such a bad thing except for the fact that we desperately need the money and the fact that my wife would never let me live it down. With everything that's going on it would almost be a relief to have the responsibilities taken away from me.
I'm not used to failing. This will be my biggest failure ever. And I'm not even sure if I'm willing to fight it. My home life is to chaotic for me to be here when they need me. My meds are making me too sleepy and lethargic. And then there's just my depression.
Sigh.
I've hit a low. I'm not at the bottom. I'm looking over the ledge. The question is should I try to start climbing up, or jump.
I'll land on another ledge, I know. But jumping gets easy after a while, and it's a long, long, long way down.
Because you never finished a project because you were ill I would not consider that as a failure.
If the stress is so bad that it makes you function below par it might be a good thing to take a break either by stepping to the side for this project.
Talk to your Doctor get their advice you could get sick time that will stop you from being demoted and use the time to get well or better at least.
The confusion that we find in our head usaully is our body giving us a message to
let us know something is really wrong so listen to your gut instinct and get advice from a professional before it drives you to far.