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I'm copying this over from my journal. I could really use something right now. Not sure what. :(
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I just had a talk with the director today. She basically said that I either need to come up with a plan to get my shit together or I will get demoted.
They're willing to work with me, but they need someone in my position that can do the job. I'm not. I couldn't even confess to her just how little of the job I'm doing.
And to tell the truth, the demotion would not be such a bad thing except for the fact that we desperately need the money and the fact that my wife would never let me live it down. With everything that's going on it would almost be a relief to have the responsibilities taken away from me.
I'm not used to failing. This will be my biggest failure ever. And I'm not even sure if I'm willing to fight it. My home life is to chaotic for me to be here when they need me. My meds are making me too sleepy and lethargic. And then there's just my depression.
Sigh.
I've hit a low. I'm not at the bottom. I'm looking over the ledge. The question is should I try to start climbing up, or jump.
I'll land on another ledge, I know. But jumping gets easy after a while, and it's a long, long, long way down.
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I just had a talk with the director today. She basically said that I either need to come up with a plan to get my shit together or I will get demoted.
They're willing to work with me, but they need someone in my position that can do the job. I'm not. I couldn't even confess to her just how little of the job I'm doing.
And to tell the truth, the demotion would not be such a bad thing except for the fact that we desperately need the money and the fact that my wife would never let me live it down. With everything that's going on it would almost be a relief to have the responsibilities taken away from me.
I'm not used to failing. This will be my biggest failure ever. And I'm not even sure if I'm willing to fight it. My home life is to chaotic for me to be here when they need me. My meds are making me too sleepy and lethargic. And then there's just my depression.
Sigh.
I've hit a low. I'm not at the bottom. I'm looking over the ledge. The question is should I try to start climbing up, or jump.
I'll land on another ledge, I know. But jumping gets easy after a while, and it's a long, long, long way down.
I think you hould try to start climbing up rather than jumping..
One guy lusted after management, and badgered them for it. It was bad for all concerned.
The other guy didn't want to have a manager position, but he would have been good at.
The first guy ended up unhappy and miserable, and was let go. (By me, but that is another story).
The second guy was given a "chief scientist" position. He was a very clever engineer, and in his job he got to help out the other engineers, yet he did not have the responsibilities of management.
I don't know the exact situation you are in, but factor your happiness into the equation.
Do you think that you're on the right dose of meds?
It sounds like you're under a lot of stress.
Please climb. Don't jump!
well, I guess it just comes down to what you feel you can do. Can you yank yourself back up and do the job like they want? if not, then I think it's ok to take a demotion. It's not the end of the world, and maybe in the future you can come back up again.
I would suggest keeping your attitude as positive as you can around your boss/coworkers so that no doors close on you permanently.
((((((big hugs!))))))