Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Hi,
I am new here. I have been on DS since June but this is my first time here. Tonight I am having a hard time even writing an introduction. I am breathing and eating but that is about it.
New Years Day was horrible. I just didn't want to keep living. I am ok...sometimes even good when I am at work but days off are horrible. Coming home at the end of the day is horrible.
I go from ok/good to a very dark place in hours. I try to make a small list of things to do to keep busy or at least accomplish a few things but it doesn't happen. I find myself watching TV for hours. Surfing the internet for hours, sleeping. I sometimes don't take a shower until I have to go back to work, whether it be 2 days or 5. Most weekends I don't leave my apartment.
Motivation is gone. I don't have passion for anything anymore. I feel like garbage. I have tried several SSRI's but they give me very bad GI side effects. I don't know what to do from here.
I am new here. I have been on DS since June but this is my first time here. Tonight I am having a hard time even writing an introduction. I am breathing and eating but that is about it.
New Years Day was horrible. I just didn't want to keep living. I am ok...sometimes even good when I am at work but days off are horrible. Coming home at the end of the day is horrible.
I go from ok/good to a very dark place in hours. I try to make a small list of things to do to keep busy or at least accomplish a few things but it doesn't happen. I find myself watching TV for hours. Surfing the internet for hours, sleeping. I sometimes don't take a shower until I have to go back to work, whether it be 2 days or 5. Most weekends I don't leave my apartment.
Motivation is gone. I don't have passion for anything anymore. I feel like garbage. I have tried several SSRI's but they give me very bad GI side effects. I don't know what to do from here.
Anyway, it you feel better at work then maybe planning events outside of the house would be best on your days off. Even a trip to Starbucks or the mall or something. Baby steps and keep it simple.
Everyone here understands and will offer any support you need! Please know you are not alone my friend :)
I am not sure if I have tried Prozac. I have tried Paxil, Lexapro, and Zoloft. Something tells me I have tried prozac but I have to ask my doc. Last year I tried the previous mentioned meds and all gave me explosive diarrhea. Sorry for the over share. Anyway...it was a deal breaker for me. I am working with my primary care doc because after calling 8 or 9 psychiatrists and being told they aren't taking new patients i gave up. Not so much gave up as I needed help within a reasonable time frame.
I am seeing a psychologist. I like him and it seems to be going ok but it is hard for me to open up sometimes. We have been working on childhood abuse issues and issues i am having with my almost 20 year old daughter that lives with me.
I am going to call my doc Monday and tell her i want to start trying meds again. I have been trying to deal on my own but I can't even get a tiny bit motivated. I just feel like I can't get out of this well.
BAD FOR WE WHO SUFFER DEPRESSION.
COULDNT GET WARM 2DAY UNTIL 2PM.
THEN DROVE TO GROCERY STORE AFTER I DRESSED AND WENT TO MAIL BOX.
B4 MAILBOX, I DIDNT FEEL LIKE DRIVING.
AFTER I GOT OUT INTO THE COLD FRESH AIR I REALIZED I COULD DRIVE!
IT SEEMED 4EVER 2 GET MY TRUCK WARMED UP INSIDE.
THEN I HAD TO TURN THE HEAT DOWN. LOL
YES, COLD WEATHER IS ROUGH FOR PEOPLE WHO SUFFER FROM DEPRESSION.
ITS GOING TO B RAINY (YUK) AND IN THE 50'S HERE.
I PRAISE THE LORD I HAVE A "EVENTUALLY" WARM HOUSE AND FOOD AND TWO DOGS WHO SLEEP WITH ME TO WARM ME. LOL
HANG IN THERE.
I HIDE OUT UNDER MY BLANKET WHERE IT IS DARK THEN I REALISE THAT IS A BAD PLACE TO STAY.
EVEN WITH AN ELECTRIC BLANKET, I M COLD DOWN TO MY TOES.
I M NOT IN A COLD CLIMATE, BUT IT WILL MONDAY NIGHT B 11 DEGREES WHICH IS COLD FOR HERE.TUESDAY 30 DEGREES. BRRRRRRRRRRRR LOL
I M ON GENERIC ZOLOFT BY CAMDEN.
I HAVE GI PROBLEMS TOO.
I WAS ON PFIZER BRAND ZOLOFT BUT UNITED HEALTH CUT THE FUNDING FOR IT.
I PICKED UP ABILIFY TODAY HOPING IT WILL HELP.
IT COST $600 FOR ONE MONTH.
I M FEELING GOOD RIGHT NOW SINCE I TOOK MY NIGHT MEDS AT 5PM.
TOMORROW WILL B TOMORROW.
NEW DAY, DIFFERENT DAY.
EVERY DAY IS NEW AND DIFFERENT.
THERE R 361 DAYS LEFT OF THIS NEW YEAR FOR NEW HOPE!
KEEP HOPING AND IT WILL WORK OUT SOMEWAY.
I HAVE MOTIVATION AND INTEREST IN THINGS AFTER 4PM.
THAT MAY B MY KEPPRA IS WEARING OUT.
I DO THINGS RATHER I WANT TO OR NOT.
I LEARNED THAT LESSON AFTER MY BRAIN SURGERY.
EVERYTHING IS AN EFFORT BECAUSE I M ON SEIZURE MEDS, PARTICULARLY ON COLD MORNINGS.
WHEN IT IS WARM ENOUGH, I CAN FUNCTION A LOT BETTER.
I GO OUT AND WALK MY DOGS IN EARLY MORN IF ITS WARM ENOUGH.
TV AND MUSIC BOTHERS ME TILL 4PM.
CANT MENTALLY CONCENTRATE UNTIL 4PM.
IT IS A MIRACLE I DROVE TO THE GROCERY STORE TODAY.
I HAD A CLEAR MIND TO DO IT.
I DONT KNOW HOW I WILL FUNCTION AFTER I START THE ABILIFY.
TO B HONEST, I M CONCERNED!
I DONT LIKE TRYING NEW PSYCHOTIC DRUGS AT ALL, BELIEVE ME.
I DONT KNOW IF I WILL B DR JEKLE/MR HYDE. LOL
PRAY ALL GOES WELL WITH ME.
KEEP YOUR CHIN UP!
HUBBY HAD OPEN HEART SURGERY 9-10-13.
HE IS BACK ON THE ROAD!
WE HAVE A LOT TO B THANKFUL FOR!
The one thing that helps is the support I can get on here. I haven't told anyone how I'm feeling so it's a release to be able to get it out. You are not alone :)