...and to make it even more complicated, he is my boyfriends brother (lets call him K). I know its bad please don't judge and if your going to say something negative just don't comment at all. Ok so I am 23 years old and me and my boyfriend (lets call him M) have a baby son together. I just feel like everything was rushed and I was so young. Before I had my son and before I even knew his brother was doing drugs, I snorted cocaine and then later I found out I was pregnant. I stopped doing cocaine once I found out but shockingly, K relapsed. Then surely, I developed a crush on him. As of September, K passed away. I even feel like he liked me, I mean I will never know for sure and Its not like it would of happened anyway but the signs were there, of course I ignored the signals he gave off because out of respect for M, I couldn't get in between 2 brothers. Well the energy that was there just felt so much stronger than the energy with my bf. K would try to joke with me all the time but It seemed so much crush-like, he would grab my homework, he would take my drink and hes much taller than me so he would try to get it out of my reach. The last time I saw him I was walking down the steps to leave the house (K and my bf lived together) and I turn around and K was behind me I remember that I was in a mood and well i didn't mean to say this but i did it just came out without thinking it kinda just slipped "im gonna hit you too" thats what I said to K and I heard a deep voice "ooohh" coming from him. I didn't mean it in a hitting on him kind of way, till this day i dont know why I even said that but I just cannot get him out of my mind when all I desperately want is for him to leave my mind because I feel so awful for liking my bfs brother I really do but It really hurt me to hear about his death and all I think about is K. What can I do about this?
Hi guys, know a lot of you are in the same boat as me. I feel very alone although im not, have some amazing friends and my amazing partner but Im sick of fighting. Doing everything youre supposed to; take meds, vitamins, look after self, getting out the house every day, eating better but it just doesnt seem enough. I was fired from my job yesterday over something very trivial, something they...
i have so many amazing friends here. I wish id met u sooner but i hope i get to know u for a long time more. Thanks guys.