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...and to make it even more complicated, he is my boyfriends brother (lets call him K). I know its bad please don't judge and if your going to say something negative just don't comment at all. Ok so I am 23 years old and me and my boyfriend (lets call him M) have a baby son together. I just feel like everything was rushed and I was so young. Before I had my son and before I even knew his brother was doing drugs, I snorted cocaine and then later I found out I was pregnant. I stopped doing cocaine once I found out but shockingly, K relapsed. Then surely, I developed a crush on him. As of September, K passed away. I even feel like he liked me, I mean I will never know for sure and Its not like it would of happened anyway but the signs were there, of course I ignored the signals he gave off because out of respect for M, I couldn't get in between 2 brothers. Well the energy that was there just felt so much stronger than the energy with my bf. K would try to joke with me all the time but It seemed so much crush-like, he would grab my homework, he would take my drink and hes much taller than me so he would try to get it out of my reach. The last time I saw him I was walking down the steps to leave the house (K and my bf lived together) and I turn around and K was behind me I remember that I was in a mood and well i didn't mean to say this but i did it just came out without thinking it kinda just slipped "im gonna hit you too" thats what I said to K and I heard a deep voice "ooohh" coming from him. I didn't mean it in a hitting on him kind of way, till this day i dont know why I even said that but I just cannot get him out of my mind when all I desperately want is for him to leave my mind because I feel so awful for liking my bfs brother I really do but It really hurt me to hear about his death and all I think about is K. What can I do about this?
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Hi all Im new to this whole thing but I’m in desparate need of some support. Here is my story. I have been coughing since December. Went to the doctor in Feb. He sent me for X-ray which came out fine. He gave me some puffers and sent me on my way. I came back in a few weeks telling him cough is getting worse and can’t sleep. He gave me a cough syrop and told me to go for a blood work. Blood...
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so.....ive been taking 2 mg of Ativan for YEARS at night. My pdoc had allowed me to start taking 2 mg (spread out and not all at obe time) during the day. I was taking it as needed. When i did take it it made me very sleepy. So i havent taken it during the day, even though i had anxiety. This same pdoc had previously had me on 2,400 mg of gabapentin EVERY DAY AND had me on the 2 mg of ativan at...
I hope you can live a long and loving life with M. I say HOPE.
And drugs? Not good for anyone .... ANYONE .... I hope you and M realize that and regard it as the garbage that it is.
The drugs need to stop, time to grow up, drugs are just a waist of time, energy, money, life. I would think you've seen the loss they can cause...
Personally I can tell you that when your grieving the loss of someone its not a great time to make serious life decisions. Right now your emotions are all over the place and letting them settle might be a good idea before you make a decision that will effect you and your son. I can't tell you what is the best thing for you to do. You have to think about your circumstances and figure things out.
Fact is that maybe you're young, but...you handled yourself with class. (You didn't act on your crush.) So maybe start with giving yourself some credit?
Some with the coke. More people have done drugs than you'll ever know, but you put your kid first and did what had to be done.
So that's 2 for 2.
Not too bad for someone your age.
As for dealing with grief. It's not easy. If you're religious (I'm not), one of your first stops might be to schedule a meeting with your religious leader. Even if you don't belong to a church, they will sometimes offer you literature to read. It might also be comforting to attend a service, even if to just sit in the back by yourself. Many churches have childcare or you could leave the baby with his father.
Sometimes hospitals also have grief groups. If he died in a hospital, maybe you can call there and see if you can attend a group? You don't have to explain that he was your "crush", it's enough to say that you feel bothered by your last words to him.
Classically there are 5 stages of grief (I have some issues with this, but it's a good place to start).
Denial
Anger
Bargaining
Depression
Acceptance
https://grief.com/the-five-stages-of-grief/
If you have insurance, sometimes they will have grief groups that you can join. Call your health insurance and ask. Same with if you're being treated by a doctor.
Some people get comfort from symbolically planting a tree or something (I kill all green things...this one's not for me either), but it's something to think about.
Best of luck, give yourself some credit here, and hug that kiddo of yours...I bet you're a GREAT mom,
Patti