Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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help on surviving depressive crisis

Christinaki
Christinaki
What activities do you guys do when feeling very depressed? I woke up in a really bad mood, I had a crisis right after where I did cut my arm and cut a piece of my hair, cause I was feeling so low, so ugly, so desperate I just wanted to hurt myself..

My brother managed to give me some pills and I went to sleep. When I woke up he took me for a walk (it was night already) and it seems to have calmed me down a bit, yet I am still extremely depressed..

When I have these attacks I just don't know what to do. I seriously want to hurt myself really bad.. until it hurts.. or I bleed..

I am going through a very difficult moment in my life. I don't have anyone to talk to, I tried to go to a doctor but since I cannot pay, I have to wait until March for an appointment, I could kill myself before January even comes?!

I desperately need help.. I am very depressive lately.. I'm very anti-social, I spend my days alone and I am scared of what I can do when I am having a crisis and cannot think straight... any advice?
deleted_user
deleted_user
Reach out on here. Color or draw. Go for a walk everyday. Take vitamins like b and d to help boost your mood. Can you talk to your brother when you get mad? Do you have any pets you can cuddle with?
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Have you suffered from severe emotional trauma in your life? Abuse? Anything horrible? Sounds lke a trigger to me. A PTSD TRIGGER. If not, seek a psychiatrist for meds to control your thoughts. If you have suffered horrible emotional trauma, especially as a child, you may be being triggered by messages you are subciounciously telling yourself. Cutting is a form of self hate. What made you hate yourself? Whatever it is, STOP...I LOVE YOU...LOVE YOURSELF,,
Christinaki
Christinaki
Hi and thanks for your replies.

Yes I do have a background in my life, ever since I was born, of abandonment by my parents, drugs & alcohol in the family, physical & verbal abuse by my mother etc.. for 18 years I grew up with her calling me "failed abortion", "ugly", "garbage has more use than you" etc..

Like I said, I cannot see a doctor right now, I cannot pay, and the free service scheduled me an appointment for MARCH! It's insane!

My brothers sometimes talk to me during my crisis, on others they are just too busy playing computer games to give me attention.. they want me alive cause I cook their food, otherwise I feel like I really wouldn't be needed in this house..

I don't have friends to talk to, the people I know online always go offline when they see me in LOL my pets just all die (better than being with me huh), my parents rejected me and I obviously never got a boyfriend..

It's hard to be positive and think of something good, when i don't have anything good in my life..
deleted_user
deleted_user
computer games are a place where many of us run from our own realities, so it's not a statement on you, it is a reflection of their inability to cope as well. Take care of yourself and keep fighting the good fight.
deleted_user
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I play chess or write computer scripts; something that commands my mental focus. It's hard to think about how bad you feel when you are studying a complex problem.
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deleted_user
You know that you have depressive swings. Know that's all this is. It isn't you- as our illnesses do not define US. Our illnesses define our emotions sometimes, and our perception. I know it feels like you're suffocating, and you can't get through it. Know that you DO have the power to pull through. Look at yourself like a stranger going through the same feelings- how would you comfort them? I talk to myself, I write sometimes, I take long, hot showers. I do my makeup- because as someone who was also told far too often how ugly she was, it makes me feel pretty and stronger. It also gives me something to do with my hands instead of cut or otherwise hurt myself. Listen to stupid, happy music (I recommend Christina Aguilera's Fighter, The Muppet Show, and anything by Bo Burnham on youtube), and force yourself to get up, walk, dance, or otherwise get your endorphins up. You CAN make it until your appointment. Focus on that, and force yourself to take care of yourself. I love you, I believe in you. Keep going.