My physically and emotionally abusive grandmother trying to force me to go to a military school (apparently it's like a help place.. help me get a job... and life skills as she wants to call it... fuck her... I don't need that stuff. I already have all that. I only don't do anything for her or anything because she treats me the way she does... I have all these disorders.. including major depression disorder... And that.. and a ton of events.. And how my grandmother treats me... has led me lose who I am... be constantly depressed... have constant thoughts of suicide... And to hurt myself.. And I constantly have insane thoughts... like to cut my arm to the bone... And write a hate letter to my grandmother on the wall in my blood... And I have these thoughts all the time.. but what scares me... is now I have the will to do it.. And almost the want to... please help me...

P.s. please dont say report her... because I do... all the time... And nobody... cops.. children services... nobody does anything about it... children Services said until one of us swings on the other and there be significant wounds that I will not be taken out of the house... And I don't know what to do... she's driving me insane.. And children services is too stupid to try and prevent something like that from happening...