Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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shark-club
shark-club

i just hope someone will hear me. i'm new to this site. i'm scared and i have an addiction to self harm. i am afraid of my mother and i can't seem to find comfort in anyone or anything. i'm on medication, but my body is building tolerance to it, you know? i'm scared and i'm shaking as i write this. i'm scared of death but i want to die so bad in this moment. i'm labeled as the family disappointment- bad grades, not fully straight, and how i always always always lie. my lying is a defense mechanism i've used to stop being called out on by my family. i want to die, i guess. my arm still stings from my last relapse an hour ago and i just want a big hug and for my mom to not say "grow up" when i told her i relapsed. i just want someone to actually care for me and take care of me. i hope i die in my sleep. cheers mate 

hollyd22
hollyd22
I've been where you've been and it will get better. I was a compulsive liar for 16 years and masochist for about 3 years and i'm telling you, don't give up hope. You never know when shit can turn around.
gwiggle
gwiggle
I just want you to know that you are NOT alone. I've also been there. I'm 18 years old in college and I'm dealing with suicidal thoughts and I've tried to commit suicide twice. I used to self harm, and I've had very similar feelings to you in the past. I am medication resistant, so I had to get Electro-Convulsive therapy done (which wasn't fun but it helped a lot). The feelings will get better with time. Stay strong and keep fighting. Some days you may feel like you're fighting for your life, and others you may feel like you're just fighting off a cold or something. Every day is just as important. I know this isn't the most helpful advice, but try to focus on the positives. It can be hard, but even if you just find one silver lining in every day, that's so important and so helpful. The silver lining could be "I got out of bed today", or "I ate breakfast today", and those can be such big things to strive for, and it's amazing when you're feeling so down and you can accomplish those things. Keep your head up. I don't know you, but I know you can do it. Sorry for the long message xoxo
Restful
Restful
Sending love and hugs your way. Please stay strong for yourself and your own well being. Put aside the negative things others say and do what it takes to take care of yourself mentally and physically.
Onlythelonely
Onlythelonely
We do hear you. Sorry for your home situation and that you aren't getting support from you Mom. Are you still in school? If so, can you talk to a counselor? Have you heard of the suicide text hot line. You can text 741741 for help. Saying a prayer for you find the help you need.
Madsiekins
Madsiekins
I’m sorry you’re going through this... I get it, I was pretty much addicted to self harm at one point and well, I did try medication. Honestly just made me worse and I haven’t tried it since. And well, not too long ago I had bad anxiety around everyone, even my family. I would be too scared to do anything, like not even eat and thought my parents despised me. I’m really sorry... as everyone else is saying, you’re not alone. I’m new here too, and it’s gonna be ok. Us going through the things that we are need to stick together, that’s something important. I hope it gets better for you, and just anyone.