I can't believe I wrote hear-- I know it is here.

Welcome to the group! Depression is very rough regardless of the specifics involved. Hope you have a good day. My day is going pretty well. A short time of anxiety passed and I am now feeling better.

I hear you...LOL Here....LOL LOL....welcome over to our corner of the internet....we are pretty nice even when we feel terrible...which for me is now not too often because of a good controlling medicine....my biggest problem right now is my uncontrolled diabetes that my PCP is trying to get under control with Levimar Flexpen insulin now...first time using insulin on my own...but still running high sugars in morning like 280,....uggh

oh also you can edit posts here now....see where the post has title that you said hear? very bottom of the post is a heart and next to heart is a arrow click the arrow then click update....and if Minidogs wanted to update hers because of spelling or changed mind the place where her name is an arrow is on end of that...click that then click update and it lets you edit....

Thank you all for replying. I don't feel alone anymore. My wife has been so supportive, but after being banged up for over 13 and a half years-- I feel resentment from her and it breaks my heart.
I can't say that I would not feel the same way. She goes to work and I don't. It is palpable. I don't blame her at all. I settled with the WC nightmare last year so I made sure she was taken care of and I get a monthly check for as long as I live. I got a lump sum and I put it into a retirement fund for the both of us. In her name first and mine second. I appreciate her helping me get along the last 13 years. I have to be honest. I do feel sorry for myself sometimes. I snap out of it and move along. I am tired of being disabled. I want to go out and just take a nice run and lifts some weights and those days are over. I am depressed. Thanks for letting me vent. I want to paint and fly and play golf and play tennis and woodwork and play my guitars. Enough. I am sorry. I am down.

well that is a pretty good thing to get a big WC deal for injuries....I did not know that was case or anything about injuries at work....but money does not replace the old life we had it just makes the one we have now better....I am sorry your wife and you have issues....that is hard enough to deal with....but hugs for finding us here...again hear me ? LOL

Welcome to DS. depression is tough. I also understand how difficult marriage can be. I am sending hugs and good wishes.

You are not going to let me up for air on that one are you? I don't know you but I like you bill. You remind me of my 2 brothers. I did not say a big WC deal. It was far short for battling those A_s Ho_les for 13 years. I am still worried about money and income. No business is going to hire me with all of my restrictions and constraints. I have 2 degrees in IT and it does not matter. I am a liability. That irritates the sh_t out of me. I might not be mobile but I still have my brain. This is helping me already. Thank you. How are you doing? What are you dealing with? And you are right money does not solve problems unless it is a ridiculous amount. For example, if you are burned over most of your body, a large settlement will take care of your future medical bills but not your soul. Once again what is your situation? I have to take a lot of pain meds to get through the day. Forgive me.

Welcome, Tyger -- I hope you find great support and encouragement here. I’m sorry about the issues with your wife, I’m sure this is hard for both of you. Sending you hugs and prayers!

Welcome Tyger! Every day is a battle but you have to keep your head up. Heck every minute, every hour and every second. We all try to keep going forward. It makes it even harder when you are having trouble with your spouse. Has she been to the Dr with you and he explain what is going on? Maybe she also needs to join a support group. Like any disease it affects everyone involved. I'm praying that you can find something to help you in this journey to keep your spirits up.