Hi, same for me. Wanna talk about it?

Hello, What's up?

Thank you for taking the time to respond. I greatly appreciate it.

I've been really depressed for a while now. I have some good days, but most days it feels like I'm barely getting by. I have PTSD and BPD as well as depression, which I am trying to manage as well. I'm in therapy and that is going really well. I feel like I am making some headway, but I can't shake this depression.

I haven't been able to hold down a job, which is giving me a lot of anxiety. I feel like a failure. My friend told me that I should apply for disability, but I haven't because I honestly want to work. I want to be able to hold down a job and take care of myself financially. It makes me angry that I just shut down and can't function properly. I don't know what to do. I feel like a burden to my family, who I am living with now ever since my divorce about a year ago. They're being so supportive of me, but I can't help feeling guilty. Why is it so hard for me to hold down a job? Why do I just shut down?

Anyway, that's what's going on with me at the moment. Thank you for listening.

It is difficult for anyone to hold down a job (or look for a job) during the COVID pandemic. Companies are downsizing and shedding their non-essential staffs. Most companies do not have the budget to rehire staffs or to create new positions. Your situation is faced by many others these days. The best thing you can do now is keep applying, and keep going to interviews because the odds are, you may secure a job out of 1000 applications, even if it is something you don't like, or that it is not what you are trained for. Alternatively, you can volunteer to acquire new skills that you can put on your Resume. Sometimes a volunteer position may lead to a new job as the host companies often hires volunteers after observing their capacities.

Once you have acquired a new job, then you would not feel so guilty, and the financial and familial pressure on you would be lifted.

Hello. I'm in the shut-down phase as well at the moment and have just been made redundant. I have nothing useful or prophetic to say, just know your not alone.

I am sorry your feeling low. Your family is very supportive that is a plus and therapy is going well that is a plus. I am not able to offer much more right now.