The day after your binge, you will feel like crap. Even worse than you do right now.

jTry prayer,. it helps me. Nice picture of archangel Michael for your avatar.

And what will be accomplished in the end? You will have spent money needlessly and will feel terrible and even more depressed tomorrow.

I have a feeling you can think of a better way to spend that money.. something that won't be gone in a matter of hours...

I am sending you hopeful thoughts that you are good to yourself..

I am so sorry that you feel this way. Do medications help at all? I can see where self medicating would be tempting. Sometimes it can ultimately make the bipolar worse---How about calling a crisis line? Hate to see you do yourself in. I think that there are some good things on the other side but I wonder if there is more to do here on earth. I'll bet that you are not aware of a gift or talent that you have. Try something creative like painting. Hugs to you.

Don't give in to your negative thoughts. Take it one minute at a time if you have too and let us help you in any way that we can. We are here for you. Please trust us to help. We have all been through at least part of what you are going through. Sometimes this can feel like the safest place of all. Please don't give up, ok?

as a beeper, you have an aspect of dis-ease that us unipolar deepers don't normally relate to. But, I have had the "riding lightning" feeling a few times. The crash back to the bottom is not worth the high. Chasing and romancing the highs, if I go there, will get me killed. I do not mess with unprescribed drugs since I was in my teens. I was mis-medicated in state nuthouses for a number of delightful stays, and I have not ever looked up the research on what happens to a developing teen male brain that gets drowned in phenothiazines. Thorazine, Proketizine, Mellaril, Stelazine, and every other downer from didddly eye oh to damned if I know. Please rely on pro help, or don't take anything. I saved my own life by cheeking and spitting the crap they gave me. But not soon enough. I will be a lunatic for the rest of my days. Oh, and I am 61 now, and sorta in remission, I think. My thinking is suspect. I am trying hard to rely on feelings. Seems like they are always REAL. Bless you for being here.

I am right with you. Everytime i say I am sick of life or wish I was gone I cringe. This is not the life Jesus died to give us. I also still think about partying "just one more time" I liked the white stuff too and alot more. I am just glad that I have a strong faith and remember the problems my past had caused. I just repent when i say these things and pray that he will give me strength to continue and if it is his will stop the pain :) Hang in there he will forsake us.

first off you dont have to go to detriot to find crack... if you wanted it bad enough you would get it in your home town....
forget it anyways. i am an addict.... you just ahve to get addicted to healthy thing instead... like working out! OR coffee!
oki want to punch myself for saying that but come one.... you can be better than a greyhound ride to get some crack.
take the greyhound to a themepark... ride rollar coasters all day...
if you still feel bad... try something else.
basically CRACK IS WACK! fun to do at the time, but not worth the consequences....
spend your money on something else....
take the money and but a concert ticket!!!
but beware... you can find drugs at a concert very easily...

I have not smoke crack since July 3rd 2005. I was just comparing being severely depressed and how much pleasure crack you get . When you feel depressed every day. I was just trying to give anybody an example that an illegal drug that gives you such pleasure that it makes you want to do almost do any thing to get crack cocaine to get that feeling only lasts for 3 to 5 hits and you crave the drug even that you won`t get that same feeling..I don` plan to get any crack. The suicide of that 15 years old makes you think do You want to kill yourself? Or do you want a better life? We are all gonna die someday. I`m like 50 years hell and I want to die and go to Gods kingdom. Suicide is not away to make it to heeaven.

drugs don't help, they only make it worse!! i know, i tried goin down that road!! just get on ur knees and pray!! God will listen!!