Maybe try a different med and go for counselling. Medication is like a bandaid - it keeps you at baseline so you can work on your problems with a clearer mind.

Depression doesn't care about the good things that are happening in our lives. It just knows how to magnify the negative. Sorry you're feeling so bad. And yes I have heard that birth control pills can make it worse (sorry!). I hope you find a solution.

Thanks for ur replies. I really feel like I need time off work because of the depression but I woke in a small business of only 8 people and feel it could cause implications if I were signed off. Also, we have a major event on the 20th and it needs to be me dealing with it. This is the part of my job that is causing the depression but I can't change it here and struggling to get interviews for other jobs. I could get signed off and miss this event but I feel I would then be letting the company down

I think we get more depressed when anything major is happening in our lives--good or bad. It's the stress of the situation. Could be hormonal too--I think a lot of mine is related to hormones. I have a sister who (married now) went through serious depression right before she was getting married too and they ended up breaking up only to wait a while later and now they are married. It will all work out in the end--just don't do anything rash (like they did) because you've already taken the first step and that is admitting that you are depressed.

The average person really doesn't understand what depression is. Definitly find out about the pill you are on, many of them can make you more depressed. I mean, they alter our hormones and you know how hormones effect the way women feel.
As for the celexia, maybe now isn't the right time to be on a lower dose. Getting married is a Major life change and perhaps you will need a little extra medicinal support as you approach this new phase of your life.
Just my thoughts.
I wish you well.

I agree with my friend Toddi... hormones suck for women and for the men that have to deal with the women.. lol.... good luck hon

"The truth is that Ive been a depressive. People think that if youre depressed then youre depressed about something, but Im not.

"I just feel terrible, and its not about record sales or media or family. The real root of it all is actually I suffer with an illness thats called depression."

Robbie Williams

When I read this I applauded the man for putting it into words everyone can understand. It's now important that people take that understanding and aplly empathy. Sadly, that seems to be a rare thing when we talk about depression.

It seems there are a lot of possible changes that could be made in your life; just do one at a time so that you know what makes a difference and you aren't overwhelmed.

That is so true Juice. Fortunately I have a very understanding fiance (we are getting married a year today!) and he gets that depression ignores the good things. On the plus side, I have upped my meds to 20mg today and I swear I already feel slightly better :-)

You are so blessed to have a fiance that understands. I am in a bit of a "funk" now...and I am not sure if it's hormonal (as we have that my hormones are out of balance) or situational...or ...just because. Usually there is a trigger (even if it's the smallest thing) and that for whatever reason, the depression just says with me. I just want to cry. And I don't want to do anything. Granted, I am sitting here now at work and doing (mostly) what I need to do. I am putting on that face that all is fine...but really..I am scared of everything. I want to give each of you a big hug. We must practice courage every day. This will pass...it will get better. I must admit that I am jealous of those that are in relationships. I was in a relationship for about 5 years with a guy that would do anything for me. I could be depressed and he worked through it with me. We broke up (because I was not in love and didn't think it was fair to keep him around for my own safety). Now that I am out in the "real world" and dating someone else, who knows about my depression...but is nothing like my ex...I sort of miss my ex. But I could never go back. Cause I am sure that all of the other things would irritate me again. I am just so sad. I am sorry I turned this into my venting session. Jennielou, it sounds like you are on the right path. Keep on keeping on. It also sounds like you have a lot on your plate..the project coming up on the 20th. Things may calm down after that. We have a big thing going on at my work too...but I feel that is keeping me busy which is good. Thanks for listening.

oh yes I love the comments that imply you are just sad and need to cheer up. most people just dont get it! It's even harder when the people who dont get it are friends and family. Im glad though that your fiance is supportive. I hope the dosage increase helps!