Hello, I hope things get better for you.

You don't mention what kind of physical symptoms you're having but if they are gastrointestinal, respiratory, racing or irregular heartbeat, joint/muscle pain, flu-like symptoms etc... along with your anxiety/depression, you might be dealing with a chronic Enterovirus infection like my mom and me. Our anxiety/depression turned on the moment we got sick, like someone flipped a switch. Sadly, except for a very few doctors like Dr. John Chia, the medical ignorance is stunning especially since so many of us are infected. If you want more info check out the Enterovirus Foundation website. I hope you can find some answers and you and your friend can patch things up. Hugs to you

Thank you for your replies and hugs! The main symptom for a while was extreme fatigue and just not feeling right. The only one who really listened to me was my Cardiologist, who sent for a nuclear stress test to make sure there were no further blockages; had MI in 2014 with one stent placed then and second stent a year later, even after losing weight(diet and exercise). Heart is fine. I do get occasional GI symptoms. No joint or muscle pain. Someone else also mentioned Enterovirus. I'm trying to find a new primary doc. Had a great one for years but I moved a few months ago and now he's too far. Saw someone near me but didn't like him. He really didn't know what to do; didn't feel like he really listened to me.. Minimal lab work. Thyroid was in normal range(I saw my own results oline) but since it was low normal he tried putting me on thyroid medication and I refused, besides the fact no one from his office bothered to let me know. Got notice from pharmacy to pick up a prescription and when I called about it they said my Dr called it in. Nice of them to let me know, so I called Dr office and asked why nobody bothered to call me and let me know what he wanted me to take and WHY!!! They said a nurse would call me later in the day; wasn't til 3 days later they finally called! I told her I'm not taking anything I don't feel I need. I don't even want to take what I have to every day. I'm tired of taking pills! Sick of doctors just handing out prescriptions. By the way I worked in healthcare for years(Occupational Therapist) and both brothers are doctors (I do not ask them for advice!)
Thanks for listening!!!

Hi hun just remember you have the power within you to rise above the b.s...sometimes we all want an answer, a diagnosis so we can feel validated and move on. But it isn’t always that simple. To be honest with you it does sound like you are extremely stressed, and it certainly creates a physical impact that can’t always be measured by medical testing. If you can, try to find the positivity. Your body is well enough that the symptoms you are feeling are in my estimation a manifestation of mental stress. It can be improved so long as you are willing to dig deep inside and reflect on why, but also try to include time daily for activities that will help you become more centered like meditation/yoga/etc. And keep talking about it. Thank you for being open and honest :)

Breezy: I never said I wasn't stressed. The main thing that was stressing me out was physically not feeling well. In the past I have been to hell and back with depression and anxiety and have never felt like this. I KNOW depression can cause physical symptoms, but this time around the physical came way before the mental! Please do not try to diagnose me! I am not into meditation or yoga.

Sorry, I am only trying to help. I am not trying to diagnose you.

Breezy, I know you were trying to help... Sorry, I'm not doing very well right now.

Really bad day... miserable and crying. Feeling really depressed. Ended up calling my therapist and telling him I need to see him. He asked if I was suicidal and I said I want to die but I'm not going to do anything. Unfortunately can't get in til next week. As stated above was going to take a break from therapy, but guess I won't be doing that. I usually see him every other week.
To top things off, finally got around to trying to do laundry only to discover the damn washer wasn't working so had to call my home warranty company to arrange service and the soonest is Thursday!! I wanted to scream! I get so easily agitated these days.

Jimdub, Thx for your reply and prayers! I have called the county crisis line in the past and they were helpful. Will call again if I need to. They have people come to the home if you're really in crisis. Last year they came out when I was trying to get into the hospital(luckily not needed right now). I do journal off and on which also helps.

Sorry that you're having such a rough time. I am sure having physical discomfort would add to your depression and vice-versa. Know that you're not alone in what you're feeling. Depression makes us want to isolate. We tell ourselves that we don't want to be a burden or the world is better off without us. I totally get it. Are there support groups in your area? Be well. Hugs.

livewithintention: Thanks for your reply! I don't do well with groups because of my hearing but I do have a therapist I see every other week. Hope I can hold out til Tuesday to see him!!! Am not having a good day today, either. Super anxious; absolutely HATE feeling that way!!! Have my Ativan but it didn't help much today. I did manage to get out to run some errands. Had to force myself to get out,
Finally heard from my friend; she sent me a note saying it was not her intention to make me feel bad. We talked briefly last night. I told her all I want is support and not advice. She said she thought giving me advice was giving me support; I told her it doesn't always work that way. Was glad to talk to her and she is probably coming over on Sunday. She is one of my best friends and I really missed her.... We've been friends for 25 years. My other best friend and I have been friends since 7th grade........50 years!!!! I feel very fortunate to have such longstanding friends!!! We've seen each other through a lot...