I'm sorry things are so difficult! Maybe you could look into a hobby or something like learning a language or joining a walking group or something? It can help you connect with others? I know it's so tough to try to do those sort of things when you feel so down but if you can work up the motivation getting out and doing things for fun really can help. Hugs! I hope you hold on and things get better for you!

You basicly posted my last two journal entries. .

Your stuck in the mundane routines. You need to find some outlet that's just for you or a few more. You are working so have a few more options then most of us. Start slowly but take note of how it makes you feel doing things for yourself. Not what you think of it.

That really sucks, heretic. I agree with the other two posts about hobbies or some kind of scheduled activity. Something you are obligated to. It will at least get you concentrating on something other than your thoughts and the emptiness you feel. You can always hang out here, too. You've always been really smart IMO. I feel like you could do anything you wanted to.

:( Where I live there are things our parish/county offers seasonally. Basically like classes from learning how to decorate a cake to martial arts and adult softball, etc. Maybe check into your city to see if things like this are offered and you could also meet people. I know depression is tough, but don't let it win.

I am trying to make myself get out of the house more and taking up a hobby to help me. I plan to learn to knit and have started going to a chruch.

I plan to learn to knit. I may not be able to make anything but one LARGE blanket (just get started and never stop on one project is what I see me doing.) But, something to do with my hands to help me not eat or smoke to much. Yeah, wish me luck with that.

I hope the church helps me meet people and maybe a friendship or two. Can't do that sitting at home. I have todo something. Take that first step.

I am not even sure I want a friendship at this time, but, we'' will see. Maybe I will find a friend at the church.

I hear ya. Me too.

Hi! Are things better today?

I'm so sad to hear this my friend. I know how hard you're fighting, and I admire you so much. I want to encourage you to weather this storm, get a little stronger and be kind to yourself until you're well enough to think about making some changes. You have so much to offer others; your warmth and intellect set a high standard to aim for and when I look back through my hugs I see so many messages of love and encouragement from you.

If you can find the strength to join some kind of group, as liz and Garysbee mentioned, it might just lead to the breakthrough you need. This world's not ready to let go of you yet and neither am I. Is there any chance of you taking in a lodger? Just thinking out loud.

You are so loved. Don't give up.

Like Juice said, you need a breakthrough and right now you are needing to weather the storm. I know it seems damn near impossible to start up a new hobbie when you are this down so could you try just babying yourself and being kind to yourself while enduring this hurricane?

Hun, I know that feeling, you're not alone, you have us. Remember you're not well. Meds wont fix your life maybe but they help you not to give up. If you feel terrible I suggest you ask for a change as it can take a while to find the right ones. That make you feel a bit more motivated

What I need is someone who loves me living with me

I've needed that all my life. Without that nothing else matters

You are a really kind person; I've seen that from the comments you give to others here. I can't do anything but send you a big cyber {{hug}} and pray that a loving person comes into your life. You deserve it.