What are you trying to "get better" from?

Your mental illness in your brain is convincing you that in order to get better you need to "harm yourself" problem is your being convinced of something that is wrong. There is not one piece of Literature, not one Clinical Trial or Diagnostic Study or Psychiatrist or Psychologist that would ever say that engaging in Self Harm is going to make you better, make your Depression and/or whatever other Mental Illness better or go away.

Your letting yourself be convinced of this because you want to be able to justify harming yourself because its what you want to do. What you need to do is find some other healthy coping skills to deal with all the emotions and feelings. Self-harm is a Learned Behavior and it can be replaced by learning other safe coping skills.

I have a 35 year history with cutting....believe me I know how to justify what I'm doing to myself and convincing others and Dr.'s that it helps. Its all just one big lie that you tell yourself.

I really hope you find a Pdoc that can help you with this.

I would suggest that you see a professional psychiatrist who can diagnose why you feel the need to harm yourself, The doctor may recommend that you talk with a therapist who can help you find better coping skills.

i know that makes sense to you. that line of thinking often makes sense to me too. but there are better ways. i have problems with the judgment aspect of it so i totally hear you and understand, and i don't know of a way around that. i think we'll always be judged for our scars no matter how we felt about making them, but there are lots of people who don't judge and who do understand. hugs.

Hi Mya, I'm so sad that you are going through this pain. What gives my heart lots of hope is that you reached out. Reaching out is big step toward health. Have you considered reaching out to a trusted family member, pastor or counselor? I want you to know there is hope and you are not alone. I am praying for you! God bless you.