Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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thetrueyou
thetrueyou

every night about the same time i go into a deep depression. I feel useless and want to just leave this world. by morning i am ok. but overall i feel useless. I have tried and lost and given up to so many jobs. today i tried to teacher sub, for a middle school. It was similar to a prison riot , i am not kidding. The kids were completely uncontrolable. I cried when i got home. I am barely scraping to make ends meet, i need a pair of glasses, clothing and food money. I feel like i am broken and done. I live with a nice girlfriend but she is always telling me i need to change my attitude and manifest happier joys in life. I usually just sit and listen to that thinking she has never felt like this. You cant just flip a switch , or I would have by now. 


I feel useless, tired, broken, worthless. I dont want to ever really talk to anyone again

billwfriend
billwfriend
teaching has totally changed and is pretty hostile environment now for teachers and kids both....I used to teach...got out in 2001 and tried one more time but did not last 2weeks.....

I am sorry you are struggling with the deep depression....I wish you well but stay out of toxic working places....

I am old enough that I will only work when and where I want to work.....and it cannot be toxic....I am 65 and security is that I have had SSDI since 2013......
Andromeda8
Andromeda8
Hi, I am sorry to hear about your predicament. The school that you are teaching sounds terrible. Perhaps you can find a school in a respectable neighbourhood where the kids are less riotous. Many teachers on this forum have opted for online teaching, or provide online tuition for many subjects. The good thing about online jobs is that you can work at home and save up on traveling costs, and that you don't need to buy more clothes to fit the job. Look on linkedin or google and type "online teaching/tuition" to see if there are any jobs suitable for you.
peterthegreat
peterthegreat
At least you can become a teacher and get a job. I cannot even get through school and do any job. Talk about useless. And you have a relationship. A lot people cannot even ask for a date.
My situation is a lot better now. Work is hard. Even the easyist job is hard. To be successful, you need to find a job coach to help you at your side. Keep posting my friend.
insectavamour
insectavamour
I miss the past.
brokencrayon
brokencrayon
You are not worthless.
You are not broken.
You are a human being that deserves respect, understanding, care, and time.
You are worth it.
Don’t ever forget that. We are all here for you. Stay strong. You can get through this.
Lifereallysucks
Lifereallysucks
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