sorry to hear that you are having a bad night hon. big hugs to you. It will get better.

hang in there were here to listen ~hugs~

You're not alone.

i understand im not alone..but i feel like i am. like. what you know and what you feel are two different things completely.
i seriously feel like everything is falling apart.

and now. no offense..
i feel like im being ignored.. =/

Alone in a crowded room, even if that room is full of your closest friends and family. I know that feeling too well. :/

omg...you read my mind.
i could be in a room with 500 people and feel like im the only one there. absolutly alone. wow. i thought i was the only one that felt like that..

Nope not the only one I feel like that all the time I'm alone even if im with someone

I think the majority of the people suffering from depression here at DS can say that they've felt like that at some point. It's more severe for some than it is for others. The feeling always sort of sweeps over me, and I react with anxiety, and I sort of detach myself from my body and watch everyone and everything as if through a television screen. It's hard to explain. :/ And it's even harder to deal with. You're definitely not alone.

wow..
you completely..just..
wow.
yea. i seclude myself..it is hard to explain. i understand that. but i know exactly how you feel. so. how do we fix it? =/

For the sort of anxiety attack that comes with sudden bouts of, "Omg, I'm utterly alone," there are grounding practices that can help bring you back into the moment, and rid yourself of that sort of surreal, television screen outlook. Things like counting slowly in your head, grabbing onto something (a chair, a couch, a friend's arm) and squeezing, pressing your feet into the floor, talking to a friend...those are some techniques that might help. They help for others. So far none of them have worked for me.

I honestly think that what helps me the most is reading. Whenever I'm feeling the worst, when I can see my support system of friends or family around me but am unable to reach out to them, I lose myself in a book. I'm sure other people find that other things help in a similar way, such as movies, music, writing, etc. Drowning myself in a book lets me escape my known world and immerse myself into some character's problems, and by the time I pull myself out of it I've allowed myself time enough away from my problems to make me feel a bit more optimistic.

Have you talked to your parents or friends about these problems? My therapist told me that finding someone close to confide in at times like these, when we feel all alone, would be helpful. I've been unable to trust anyone just yet with that sort of relationship, but perhaps you could find a way to do reach out to someone in your life. Maybe you'll find a friend or relative who has experienced those feelings before, and can sincerely sympathize and guide you through them.

OH, and I want to add that I've come to terms with the fact that when I'm feeling down, I can't force myself to socialize with people. If I'm feeling so low and alone that going out with friends seems like it would be unhelpful or even hellish, deciding to spend time alone is NOT a bad thing. It's OK to spend some time alone and just focus on yourself. You're the only person who will always be in YOUR life...so it's perfectly time to spend time with the one person who will always be there. Even when I was happy, I made sure I could find time to isolate myself away. So you shouldn't feel guilty about being a hermit now and then. It's when we feeling like we're withdrawing from our loved ones for good, against our own will, when it becomes worrisome. :/

i have a counselor.=/
i talk to him.
but i dont like talking about it with relatives or my friends. idk why. i just dont like it.
i thank you for the advice. i def. will try some of it.
i just wanna get through this night for now.

in that case...
i should be worried =/

So should I. That's why we're here. :)