It is not a phase. But it also is not the answer. It looks easy now, but it isn't Call someone...NOW...just anyone ....to talk....about anything!

Yes, a phase in the wrong direction quite possibly, has anything in particular triggered your current mood?

hang in there and try to relax take some deep breaths what about ice cream im addicted to Ben & Jerry's usually Cherry Garcia go on youtube look up funny pets but just hang in there it will get better

My friend recently tried to commit suicide, I have been in a episode and we use to talk about depression and keep ourselves strong but we aren't. I don't have a plan but I do know I don't want to live anymore

What has happened to you for you to want to turn your back on life?

I was raped... and I can't deal with this depression anymore. It hurts so much and I need the pain to stop and no one believes that I'm suffering. They are telling me I'm being over dramatic. Even the police told me not to say it just to say it.

Tell me darling, are you seeing a therapist?

There is no such thing as an over dramatic rape victim, so to those who say it to you call them liars.

They tell me I was dressed for it. I was asking for it. I saw a therapist but then I stopped because the person I saw left. I hate myself and I feel like the lowest person for being raped

Well you are not the lowest person. Getting help is a must. But remember while you are having suicidal
thoughts you have severe depression which is a physical issue. Only talking about depression doesnt help. you prob need medication as well as support to get over all this. I was raped myself but I was probably a bit older. It is never OK and it is not your or my fault. you say you have tried everything-what have you tried? good luck hun xxx

Nobody is dressed for rape darling, you are being lied to. Nobody asks to be raped, another lie. You NEED to be seeing a therapist, they are trained to understand your pain, and help stop it from happening. How you feel is natural, however, it is an irrational or false feeling. Where were your parents when your abuse took place?

I've tried therapies. My parents don't wanna get me medication for "a phase" I've tried to cheer myself up with my own coping methods like music and drawing but those don't interest me

Being raped was my fault. I was doing a nightly run. I thought I was safe in my neighborhood I wasn't. They were home and I was at a friends and she didn't wanna run with me so I did. I live in Maine and someone came and got me off the side of the road near the woods.

Your parents don't care, great, where to from here then do you think?

drop the confusion.
the rape is/was/will always be the rapists fault.
there is no one thing, there are no combination of things that justify you being raped
rape is a mindfuck, accept that it creates false beliefs

three absolute irrefutable truths:

1) You were innocent before it occurred
2) You were innocent as it occurred
3) You are innocent now and always

i'm a man, i'm telling you true, those three truths are universal for any, all, & each person that was raped