From a selfish perspective, I am so tired of all the constant chaos going on.  The quarantine was exhausting in and of itself.  I was starting to deal with it, though. Breakup, job loss, the whole thing all at once.  Our state was just beginning to open up and I was starting to resume some normal life, was not feeling nearly as bad, got to do some of my usual things. Got together with a friend for about the first time in nearly three months. Yes, that isolated.  Everyone is too terrified to leave the house.

Was just getting ready tonight to see another friend tonight that I haven't seen in many months, and guess what-we have to cancel-not because of a quarantine but because of rioting in my city. Can't even go on a walk in the park because of a curfew. G**damit. It is always something! It's like every time I turn around, I have to run and scramble and cancel my plans. I was in the the thrift store shopping for the first time in forever, and the clerk announces, "we are closing because the governor has announced a state of emergency." I'm thinking, "on top on the emergency we already have?"