Thank you for sharing. That is just living with depression. Understanding that does actually make it better. Some days it is like be draped in an extremely heavy overcoat, or that the bed sheets are nailed down. Even in these things there are victories. When whatever you do seems impossible, then in doing them, you win. No shame in being unable to do things. The shame is at the unwilling to do things. Being willing is another victory. When you look, you will see that you have many victories in your day. You can build up from there. I tend to push myself physically too hard too often. Your body will generally tell you loudly to stop. Eventually the pushing yourself just becomes just doing it. It is like how exercise improves your body. You are in my prayers. Thank you and God Bless.

That's dopamine. Wellbutrin is the only dopamine reuptake inhibitor I know of, I was on it a while and it was great. No sleep tho so they gave me a sedative too.

it's like you know all the things you have to do, but it's too hard or something, and you don't know why.

I sometimes ramble around the idea that yeah... i have depression, but maybe it has something to do with low self esteem, like you know that thing its going to make you feel better, but you dont do it because deep inside you, you feel like you're not worth it. It's a depressing though, but maybe focusing in your self esteem like writing, doing exercises like looking at the mirror and telling you your are worth it until you believe it, listening to happy songs, reading about people that improve them selfs, etc; will make it easier, because if you think yo deserve it, doing things for you, will come naturally.

In other hand I do think that focusing in improving you self esteem in little ways and doing little things, takes the pressure of how hard is to do simple shit like waking up, doing the dishes, going to the gym, and just existing. light up a candle, put your favorite movie, take a shower, do things that make you feel good but with not ass much effort like working out or going out with a bunch of friends, do little things to make you feel better and improve your self esteem until you are ready to the big ones. :) although you dont think they are big ones, 80% of this forum, know sometimes it is, you are not alone. lots of hugs, i really hope you feel better and get easier :)

Depression and Anxiety are ruled by brain chemistry imbalance. When the chemicals in your brain are not balanced the signals that are normally sent out to the rest of your body to do things are affected negatively. It makes you not want to do anything, or go anywhere, etc. When you go to the gym or work out your brain releases dopamine, endorphins and adrenaline, these are all of the bodies natural "feel good" chemicals, so you feel better, you feel more like doing things for a while until their affect wears off, then it's back to depression.

This is why people with Depression need to take medication because the meds regulate the chemicals in the brain so that your mood stabilize.

Hi ShaneG, I wish I can tell you it’s going to be easy. I wish I have a secret fomula that I can share so that you will not feel depressed anymore. Sorry that you are having such a hard time and everything seems to draw more out from you than you can manage. The truth is coping with depression is hard. It is hard to live each day with all the running thoughts in your brain. Your brain seems like it never stop thinking and it hurts. I know how you feel. But I also wanna tell you, you can get better. It will not be tomorrow or next week. It will take a while but YOU WILL get better.

Have you thought about talking to a counsellor or a therapist?? They might be able to give you some good coping advice. Give it a thought. Take care and I’m keeping you in my prayer. God bless!

hi, i am also like you. i dont do this on a consistent basis. I have anxiety too which makes it hard. anyway, i think that living an intentional life can help us. I normally would put off things that i have to do in the present. I procrastinate a lot. I cant handle being frustrated. But one time i mustered all my strength to do the thing that i have been putting off. My intention today is to go to that place and do what I have to do. I have to go there. Even if i dont feel like it. When i am there, it will flow. And il be thankful i went. i still have a lot of things to do on my list, i still put off things and still disappoint myself, its ok, i struggle too. But i still am learning how to deal with my anxiety and depression.

Lately over the last few months it has really started to get to me that I wake up and don't do anything that productive for the day, it's only been a few days that I've started to get up and do things, so far just minor things but still that's something, and I'm feeling like I'm not just wasting my time which is calming. So with the feeling that I should be doing something and actually forcing myself to do it, that's how I'm starting to get things done. I also think if you find something that you're really enthusiastic about, you can focus on doing something with that, which can be difficult when you are depressed, but when I find something that I love and focus all my energy on doing, my mood will generally pick up a lot.