Keep your child in your mind. You don't want him to grow up without a father! If you're not satisfied with your life, take steps to improve it. You're wrong about nobody caring about you. God cares very much
All of us here care too; we're all going through our own issues. We're here to help each other though. I'll keep you in my,prayers. God bless.

Keep trying and live for your son.

Thank you for the kind words

Especially right now, raising a well-adjusted and sensitive young man IS a real contribution to society. No matter what you do for money or what your interests might be, 90% of adult life is BS....the other 10%, however that is the part that matters. If being the best father you can be is where that 10% goes - there are a lot of boys (with and without dads really in their lives) who don't have that.

I would add that allowing him to understand (at an appropriate time in his development) that you have struggles is a good life lesson for him. Everyone has strengths and weaknesses and admitting that is OK for an adult... and healthy for a kid.

welcome to the club, Suicide is the easy answer, Take it from one who thinks about it daily. What is very hard to do is live, when you rather be dead. When your very depressed, suicide naturally pops into your brain. its the hopelessness that drives you there.you seem much younger then me, at your age i was in the hospital twice to get help.the only thing to help me had to come from inside. nobody can make you happy or make you sad , its only you. if your depressed its your choice to be. and that becomes your trend until you decide to think positive. have you ever noticed that there seems to be really lucky people and very unlucky people? they are only getting from life what they expect from it. if your positive you attract positive things, negitive gets you more of that.
Annie

I won’t write a book. I’ll just say that I can relate, as a Mom. I’m a Christian and I believe there is life after death. I long for it. I long to know all the things I do not know or can not know on earth. I long to be away from this sin filled world. I am scared for my daughter’s future. Hope the patterns stop with me but it anything happens to her I will be here. Best of luck. I hope you find some hope or comfort or something to help you feel better. Counseling and medication help some people. Maybe think about volunteering. It’s a great way to give back to society. Community Hospice is nation wide. Volunteering for them is the best thing I’ve ever done aside from being a Mom

Hey Restful--- Iremember you from the old DS site which tells you how long we have been around. I understand living for your son. For a long time that was true for me too. Do you have a job? I think I recall you talking about your job in a previous post. If not you're still making a great contribution to society by raising your son to be the best man he can be. You and I are both doing that.
Do you keep a juornal? A plce to put down your thoughts and feelings? I know it helps a lot of people. And you can find an incredible list of voulnteer possibilites if you look online for what's available. And a lot of the volunteering they talk about can train you for a good paying job. Good luch.

I greatly appreciate all of your support on here. I never thought about raising my son as a contribution to society, but I guess ya’ll are right about that. I made an appointment to see my therapist in a few days. It’s nice to know ther are still caring people in the world.

Hey, I am sorry this is going on. I have a five year old son and also have a 20 week pregnant wife. On my worst days, that little boy running to me and hugging me can take away every bad feeling. I live for moments like that. I want to tell you that my son thinks I hung the moon and I know your son thinks the same about you. Hang in there. Things will get better. I will be praying for you and hope to hear from you soon!