Im so stupid. I let him in, let him close, let him into my heart and body. SO STUPID! I trusted him... He loves her... he used me... again... and I let him. He is my kryptonite, no matter how strong I think I am... I fall to him, and God help me... Im tired of pain, tired of hurting, tired of letting people close to me only to drive YET ANOTHER FUCKING DAGGER into my heart. ITs tattered, shredded, and glued back together to the point pieces are missing, chunks, holes... barely together, and yet another piece is stolen, cut away and burned... kill me. I cant take the pain any more... kill me and be merciful.
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