Hi Christina. I'm so sorry you feel this way. You might want to take some meds to get you through this tough spot. But you also want to search for other therapies. You have pain inside that needs to heal. When you can look at that pain, and move through it (not away from it) in a safe way (without hurting yourself) the healing process will begin! You definitely need help to do this, no one should do it alone.

And you CAN heal. Things CAN get better! I was suicidal for a short time and I'm thankful every day that I didn't do it. It always feels like things won't get better but they WILL.

Things that help me are meditating, taking long walks in nature, journaling, art, and energy healing. But in the end I had to find ways to look at my pain and work through it. I hope you can find something that works for you, and I hope you have people who support you! Maybe a retreat, like a meditation retreat or something would really help you get away and get some perspective. Much love to you!

Christina, depression feeds us so many lies. As with Ninja, I look at all I have done in my life by staying, and see that it would have been a mistake to have missed it all. I tried depression meds twice in my 20's. Total fail, so had to find other ways to climb out. You will too. Many replies include tools that have helped others. Read away, try them out, keep those that work. The biggest difference between physical and mental health problems seems to be the lack of understanding of mental conditions. In a wheelchair, you poor dear; depressed, stop it. with lots of criticism. We are here because we have stood in your shoes, and then continued crawling our way back up and out. Supportive and comforting hugs.

Hi, I’m so sorry to hear you are feeling this way. Supportive hugs coming your way, depression feeds us so many lies, what is it about the meds that make you feel that way the side effects or the fact that you take them? You will not be defeated by this, trust me when I say hurting yourself, will not ease the pain, it just gives you a different pain to focus on for a short while. It’s short lived and followed by guilt and secrecy if you feel the need to hide it from your loved ones. You said you don’t want people to worry about you, that tells me that you have people in your life who care about you. Add us here on ds that’s a whole lot of care and love coming your way. We can better fight this as a team. Keep going, we are here for you x

depression doesn't ever happen for no reason, there is always a reason,. even when its seems to have no reason it does,. could be adrenal or endocrine glands, or diet, or a past long forgotten trauma, but most have a recent event trigger. im not going to lecture you on your meds. thats a decision we all have the right to choose. but be aware of one thing, anti- depressants , some of them you cant cold turkey on. anyway if your not happy with the help they provide maybe a change is warranted,but keep in mind that if you have committed to a therapy that includes meds that consulting with your prescribing doctor is advisable. also keep in mind , that the mind itself works in strange ways sometimes. when we are improving, it feels safe to bring to light old memories that once were forgotten to protect our fragile EGO's. this can give us the illusion that we are worse but in fact we are much better. the human brain is the most complex thinking machine known to man kind. Faulty programming or damaging input data can make it have corrupted output errors, its just a matter of correcting the fault to get it computing correctly again. GOOD LUCK

Hello Christina, Thanks for posting and for your strength and bravery as well. I know you don't deserve to feel this way. I know that your life is worth the fight. I see your daily fight. Depression causes you to feel this way and this can be helped. Medication is needed for some but the doctor or psychologist would have to make this decision. Meds have been known to help. No one is crazy for taking these. I would like for you to call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 it's a 247 hotline and confidential. The website www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org. Please post on how you are doing. Best wishes!