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Few steps back...

Glamgeek
Glamgeek

Now before I jump right in to whats bothering me now, i would like to say that I have struggled with depression for years now and althgough it has gotten alot better throughout the years and I have learned to find ways to better understand why i feel the way i feel but recently my progress to pulling myself out of a depressed state of mind has reduced due to the incidents that have occrued this past year. I've always had issues with being expressive with my feelings but now that i am older i have tried to be a bit more verbal with them. From being in an abusive relationship with my father in my younger years to now i think i have come a long way but like i said recently my depression has worsened. January of 2017, I lost one of my best friends, she passed away due to a drug overdose. I was devasted and didnt know what to do, then may of 2017, i lost, my great aunt someone who was a super important part of my life. And then July 12 of 2017, I lost my other half my 15 year old sister who i think about evryday. and when i lost her my whole entire world came crashing i couldnt sleep i couldnt eat. I couldn't even spend 5 minutes alone by myself with out having suicidal thoughts or just incredibly sad. And i klnow that its normal for me to feel incredibly sad but its been 7 months almost and i still sometimes just have suicidal thoughts because i want so badly to be reunited with my sister. And it just seems like im affecting evryone else around me. There are times where i just want my pain to stop and in those moments i just dont eat or just sit and do nothing.

rosecandy
rosecandy
You went through an incredible amount of loss in such a short time frame, and I'm so sorry to hear. I hope you can see the strength in yourself because you're still here and reaching out and that's huge. Everyone grieves in their own way and in their own time and I hope you know that after seven months (which is not a long time in the scheme of things), it's not abnormal in any way to still be grieving.

I'm glad you're still here and I'm glad you chose to reach out today instead of harming yourself. The fact that it's affecting people around you shows that you might be surrounded by empathetic people. Do you feel like you can reach out to them and talk about what's going on?

If not, please continue to talk here. We're all here for support.
Glamgeek
Glamgeek
I have reached out to some of them but its not a very easy thing to do especially when im not very good at communicating my feelings with others and some of them just don't understand that i am still grieving and trying to find my palce in this with out my sister so i find myself most of the time kinda by myself suffering in silence because as much as i hate to say it not everyone is as understanding about the situation. But i so appreciate the support from everyone and thank you.
Tired
Tired
Would going to a grief support group help?
Bobby5000
Bobby5000
Good suggestions from the smart insightful people in this group. It seems normal that you experienced some terrible tragedies and are trying to confront it all. I would think counseling and a grief support group make sense.
sherril2291
sherril2291
You have gone through so much in such a short amount of time. Seven months of grieving isn't a long time - everyone grieves at their own pace. As others have mentioned, a grief support group is a great resource, as well as counseling, especially since you have thoughts of suicide. I think you are a very strong person inside - you've experienced a lot and reaching out for help instead of impulsively acting out. I think you have a lot to teach others one of these days, when you're stronger. Until then, allow others to be there for you and come back here and talk about it as much as you need to. Here are some other resources that might help: https://list.ly/list/1CE4-looking-up-from-the-stubborn-darkness
abcdepression
abcdepression
First I am sorry for all you have lost in such a short period of time, it is very difficult to go through these and the aloneness can be overwhelming. Back in 2017 I also lost a lot of friends that had been very close to me. Two good friends of mine overdosed, one of them called me the week before and I missed the call, never returned it. I think about that often, what if I answered or what if I called him back. On top of losing them a week after I moved from Illinois to Oregon, my best friend was found dead in his apartment. It took me a long time to comprehend what happened and it was hard for me to make new friends, I had never felt so alone in my life, a couple thousand miles away from all my friends and family.

My advice to you is to learn to love yourself. It is so hard sometimes, much easier said than done. Read a book, go for a walk, go for a hike in nature, pray, do a puzzle. These little things have helped me immensely in my journey to self love. I still go through times of depression and probably will the rest of my life. There are ways to cope and people out there that care. Another thing to try is find a church whether you believe or not, you can find people who genuinely care about you.
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