(((( hugs)))). It is very difficult, especially with the holidays one after another.
Wishing you strength and agility and relief.. hope for things to get better for you.

many times i have felt like this. sometimes it was my job or career wouldnt ever get better. i would feel stuck in a dead end job going no where. sometimes it was with relationships. i felt isolated and upset about something that happened in my life. things can and will change, as the weather change. sometimes it took me chnging.one thing for certain nothing ever stayed the same. i need to be on the surf board and ride the waves to shore and move on.

Anna I feel the same way. I even ate toomuch candy and junk thinking that would help. I only felt worse. I pray you find some peaceful distractions (good movie, great sleep, meditation, fresh air, nice music, a good book, brain games, etc.) until you feel better ((hug))

I'm thinking a pet would help my situation but caring for my mom takes my extra energy right now

Going through the motions in life can suck. It can be frustrating at times. Sorry that you're feeling completely down. Checking in is a good idea when you don't have anyone else to talk to at the time.

Good luck Anna and there's supportive people and friends here. Some put too much pressure on yourself to meet some supposed goal or standard. Try to see what you'd want in life, and take some steps to meet it; if you get 1/100 of the way in a day or week, that's still progress. I had some dark days but as incompetent I could be in some ways, i did try to help people, provide charity, and I realized that I was making a positive impact upon the world and that's one thing that mattered.

Thank you all for your kindness and response to my post. It really means a lot to me. Christmas is a hard time of year when you are lonely, childless, partnerless, ill, poor, and don't get along with your family. I'm just sitting here today wishing I had someone close to me to share some of the basic holiday stuff with. I sent out a few Christmas cards, have only gotten one and will probably get little to no gifts. Not that material stuff matters, it just gets so old being left out and not being able to celebrate the nice times in life in the traditional ways. I have love to give, nobody wants it I guess is what I'm trying to say.

Anna, maybe try giving some of that love to yourself first.

I know that sounds strange and maybe even impossible, but often when we treat ourselves kindly, we find new ways to include others in our lives.

It may not be in the traditional sense you’re thinking of, but that doesn’t mean it can’t be fulfilling and loving.

What would it look like to make Christmas nice for yourself? Have a dessert or food you enjoy, maybe a movie you like queued up to watch, or something else that may be just a tiny bit nice.

Also, there are so many people who truly need the love you have to give. Consider volunteering - food banks, homeless shelters, animal shelters…so many people in need of kind and empathetic people like you with love to give.

Hey Anna, You are understood here. Many people, myself included feel this way everyday. I lost my mom last year and it was an extra misery heaped upon my already lonely existence. I go through the motions everyday. I'm tired of trying too. I can't even remember the last time I felt real happiness.

I feel like you describe at some time every day, usually when wakening up but it usually gets better when my carers or nurses arrive (I am paralysed and live alone). I hope your does too. If I could go out to meet people I would do. so.