Never say "nobody" these Boards are full of people who understand your pain and the harsh reality of your days. They're full of people who have hellish days every day of their lives....some of us just get the Joker, in this game called life. Having a Therapist to help you sort through the pain and anger and just all the crappy feelings you go through is usually a great help to help you make it through the days a bit easier and with more purpose. If you can't afford to go to one, the big thing becoming popular is Online Therapy, where you skype with a Therapist, most of those types of services run around $25 -$35 a Session and are a good alternative for folks who can't afford a more traditional and often more expensive Therapist.

Journaling and getting all your thoughts and feelings out of your head and onto paper can be a big help as well, just giving your mind some free space that you can then occupy with kinder, nicer, more positive thoughts.

There is a self harm group here, please look it up. That is a great place to go to find people who do understand your pain. They have coping methods that have worked for them, and hopefully some of those methods will work for you.

Gentle hugs

There are many people in this group who feel the same way that you feel. Please don't do anything to harm yourself. If something bad happened to you, your family and friends would be devastated. You are a worthy person who deserves to live a happy life. If you are not seeing a professional doctor, I would recommend that you contact a psychiatrist who will diagnose you and probably refer you to talk with a therapist.

I'm so sorry you're having a bad day(s). Please, please don't harm yourself. I am a survivor of suicide and I can honestly say that suicide is not the answer. It does not end pain, it causes so much pain. Are you in therapy? Do you have someone you can talk to? Please call the suicide hotline if you need someone to talk to. There are many people in this group and others like it that care about you -- I'm one of those people. Please let us know you're okay. I'm praying for you.

When people are kind enough or care enough to reply to a post you've written and offer a kind word or a bit of advice, the polite thing to do is either read it and ponder it to yourself, or perhaps thank the person for taking the time to think about you.

The Rude thing not to do is send them a message telling them "i meant the people around me so don't assume that i meant the people on this site."

I replied as I did, to suggest that you reach out to the people here on this Board who do know how you feel, who can give you help, suggestions, a caring word....

When you post a Thread, your going to get responses, or that's the hope, that people will take some time from their day and respond to you....learning to take that response and glean from it what you can, and not send out rude messages about it, would be the way to have people keep responding to you.