Wishing you the best. Hopefully you can get a change in meds from
someone else if neccessary. Maybe write your feelings down and talk to the
therapist about them.

For me, the transition from inpatient to being back home was extremely difficult. I don't know if you are having that same experience, but it took me quite some time to adjust to being home again and I often felt misunderstood. I don't think the new meds I was given in the hospital really kicked in until I was home for a few weeks and my outpatient psychiatrist had time to adjust them.

Anyway, it's a tough transition, and it sounds like you need some support. Your psychiatrist needs to be a professional and put aside their personal feelings and be a doctor and adjust your meds as needed. You are a patient in their care, and that is your right. Please find a new doctor if your current doctor is not capable of this. You matter and you deserve treatment.

It takes courage to see a counselor even though you are doing so because it seems to be the thing to do at this time. It's ok to not have any clear direction at this time. Sometimes, during crisis, we just take things minute by minute. Life is constantly changing and you won't always feel this way. Hang in there.

Sorry to hear that. The last part with the therapist and psychiatrist, I get. I am at my best when I feel like I can get people fired up and to push back. Who cares if he is angry? Dump him and go to a new one. It will be an annoyance of new patient paperwork and getting settled in, but might as well get a psychiatrist that doesn't judge the same. One who understands your problems and is willing to work with you through them.

I quit going to my therapist because she kept excusing my anger and my unwillingness to cope. I felt like she was using my disability as a crutch, which I do well enough on my own, and justify all of my emotional issues. I didn't go to therapy for validation, I wanted counseling and guidance.

I'm very sorry that you are struggling. I hope things get better and I hope your daughter starts to understand you and how you are feeling. Depression is hard to explain and those that don't experience it don't always understand. Sending you hugs!!

Suicide has a negative effect on everyone around the person attempting or accomplishing it. Deperession is a serious and often deadly mental health disease but no matter what, suicide is crossing the line.

I hope you get all the help you need to manage yours and nothing like this happens again,

I am almost 73 with (treated) combat related PTSD, depression, and anxiety disorders. Would not consider suicide ... it is no solution.

Prayers for you anirose2. Depression is horrible. Big hugs.

Thanks to everyone who respnded. Reading them helped me just knowing others understand. I'm going to see how my doctor is at my next visit and if he isn't over his anger and can't see his way to treat me, I will look for another doctor.

First, I can only say that people who have been institutionalized can still offer a lot. I just finished the Bridge Club Ladies, one of my favorite books about the friends of a woman's mom, their lives, hopes, feelings, and the complexities of her own mother/daughter relationship. Liking the book so much, I wanted to read her other books and saw Lerner, Food and Loathing, a book about her struggles with weight, suicide attempt, and observations on her stay at a state hospital. She is a wonderful writer and in addition to her insightful books, taught, and has given much to the world.

Lerner was tough on some of the doctors and one supposes like everyone else, they vary. Maybe your doctor thought tough talk would work and it did the opposite and you can evaluate a change.

It is nice that your husband has been supportive- I would try to marshall the strength to tell him thank you for being there and supporting me- I think that would make him and you feel a little better. Could you husband be an intermediary between you and your daughter,

An angry psychiatrist is an oxymoron. They’re supposed to keep their emotions under check in a professional manner.

I know that feeling of having a family member not speaking to you and I think it’s especially degrading for the elderly (I’m 73). My brother is all I have in the world and he’s cut me off and hasn’t spoken to me for the better part of 3 years. My therapist just referred to it as emotional abuse but I dont know if he was just calling it that to please me.

I would definitely suggest a therapist - it can be amazingly helpful if you find the right one.

It sounds like you need something of your own to look forward to each day.

i'm sorry you are feeling so down. it's late so I haven't read through all the replies. there are a lot of good people on here so you probably got some good advice. I just want to say that I feel for you and am here.

I'm sorry you have been going through this all. Sometimes its best to remember that it always gets better, it takes time. of course its easier said than done but I've caught myself that just nudging myself to have a positive mindset can at least get the ball rolling into happier thoughts. I hope this helps!

I am sorry to hear. First, try and not worry about your daughter right now. She may come around. Right now she just may be grieving the incident.

I can understand how you may have felt not long ago. I think some people don’t understand the trance a person finds themselves in. How it is almost an out of body experience. Not really you at that moment.

I am happy to hear you have a supportive husband, it is good advice to thank him. Is he a good listener too?

I wish you the best in your healing and am glad you are here to share your experience.