I'm feeling so down. I have no family or friends. I hate going to work. All I do is go to work and come home. I never do anything fun - ever. My life is completely bleak and meaningless. I hate work so much, every day I sit there I fantasize about suicide. I don't have the guts to do it but I wish I did. Every night when I go to sleep I pray to die in my sleep. I'm so bummed out when I wake up each day to the same shitty life.

I take my meds and see my pdoc regularly but it doesn't fix my life. The only thing that would fix my life would be to have someone love me. But that's not going to happen because I can't get out and meet anyone. I have severe social anxiety as well as bipolar disorder. I don't like being around people at all - so there is zero chance of finding someone to love me. My life is hell and I feel so low. Thanks for listening.