IM not sure why Im feeling the way I am today. I had doctor appts yesterday and one didn't turn out the way I wanted it too. My neurology appt. I have to go back in 3 months instead of the usual 6 because I have been having seizures and this last time I hurt my back and I have been having spasms that hurt so bad. Im so upset with myself because I didn't want to do another EEG. I don't like them because I either get a headache or I am groggy afterwards. I hope it finds out though why exactly I am having them. That would be good news.

Then I had my other appt and I had to tell him what I did that was so funny and it caused me a lot of anxiety ok. I accidently ordered off of the internet 18 shirts when I only wanted one. Yeah.... I had to call the company and write them emails and I got my money back but my goodness it was the most nervewracking thing ever.

Im worried about school starting next week. Im smart and Im taking this class again because last semester I had a medication change and I could not understand even the work that was handed to me I was so foggy. I felt so stupid and I was very hard on myself. I cried almost every night. I just want to get through this course so I can move on to better things. I just want to feel better about myself. I know that I am smart I just don't feel that way when I have to take the same class 3 times. Well I better not let this get too long thanks for letting me vent. I think Im just upset about my seizure and school. Im worried about the two together and my seizures hurting my grades this semester. Ugh I just need to not worry about it how do you shut the worry off.