I am sorry you are feeling these ways .. and I hope your kitkat recovers very soon.

I hope this does not sound like a lecture ... just want to say, .. life is an ever changing process ... very little 'stands still'. I could not find a 'childhood' friend today if my life depended on it.

I am the oldest person left in my family, and I only associate with one of my two younger brothers. NOTHING is like is 'was'.

However, I have found new things, people, places, behaviors .. which all give me a great life.

I recommend you look MOSTLY forward ... and make 'things happen' with your life. You can fill it, or drain it .... your choice.

I'm sorry I can't feel more positive, but what can I do? I have terrible social anxiety. I'm doing my very best to make new friends, but I just don't have many opportunities. I work, I go home, I don't do anything else because I'm not going by myself. It's really, really sad when people you care about suddenly decide they don't need you around. Worse, you didn't do anything wrong so you can't even apologize and fix it. You're just old news.

Sorry you are feeling so badly, I hope your kitty recovers.

I know how it feels to be alone, you are in my thoughts - Hugs

I'm so sorry you're depressed and that your cat is sick and costing so much money.

Families are supposed to watch out for each other. They can be closer with some, without deserting anyone - it takes so little, and if
that small effort is more than they're willing to offer, it's hard to deal with.

You might enjoy an outing, on your own. It's often difficult to find someone who enjoys the same things and going to the same places and sad to completely miss out on doing something/going somewhere because you don't have another person joined at the hip.

Sending a hug and hoping things are better soon.

Wow that is very sad. I think that people tend to pick up when others are depressed. Most flock to the outgoing overly optimistic individuals. The depressed are left behind to suffer on their own. Many cant understand and cant relate with us, after all they are living life up and enjoying it.
Aww hmm maybe you can get a new kitty.Or a small dog. I am planning on getting a bunch of pets in the near future, just to cope better in life.

Wow, my heart absolutely breaks for you. I am so sorry that you are feeling this way and that people are no longer there for you. I have social anxiety too so I do understand that challenge. Maybe start by coming here and getting to know people so that you can start feeling better about yourself and start to feel like you're making friends again. People here really do understand.

There's one thing I need to clear up, because everytime I talk about this I seem to miscommunicate this part: My family sites care about me. At least some of them. But the one's who do care an awful lot. The thing I can't stand and the thing that upsets me so much is that I'm not useful.

I hate to be a burden, even if nobody calls me that. I hate to not be useful. I hate to not be able to help. I hate to not have a function beyond existing.

Sorry for the auto corrects

I know exactly how you feel. I take care of my dad and aunt. I haven't worked in 6 years, mainly because I am on call 24/7. I think if I could actually work I wouldn't be so down all the time. I know that you work and you're lonely when you get home. I am lonely for about 12 hours a day I already took out time for sleep. I am going to start working out at a gym nearby. Maybe I will make new friends. I know that you have probably herd of meetup.com. check it out. It's not a dating site. It's for social groups. If you want me to explain more I will. I am actually going to see a movie on Thursday with the group that I joined. I know you are down because your family isn't around. I pretty much am alone as well. We can only get out and try to make lasting relationships with positive people we meet on this journey we call life. I hope this helps my friend.