Talking about these things does help to get some perspective. Maybe ring the counselling lines they are open 24hrs a day and very cheap. . You could also elaborate a bit more on what is going on with you here, so we could help you more. You mentioned life-threatening dangers?

Thanks, any examples of cheap counseling lines? Never heard of them (other than free crisis lines). In a very eerie abuse situation in which the abuser (a parent) has skyrocketed from borderline physical abuse to extremely dangerous violence that they are trying to make look passive-aggressive/accidental. It is very blatant, but they would try to explain it as such to anybody else (it is second-nature to them to play innocent/play very dumb), and the rest of the family does not believe they are capable of it (and is in denial of the seriousness of the years of explosive rage and borderline physical abuse that I have been the target of by them for years). I managed to leave for a few months before, but they grew extremely stalkerish. Seems like they are going to seriously attack me, and very possibly kill me, before doing anything more minor that would be more blatant and that they could get in legal trouble for (e.g. beating). They're too smart/they know better. Really horrific situation. I am young and resourceless and been through a recent trauma.

I feel really bad and my heart goes out to you. I suggest crisischat.org/chat now that we're throwing names out there. It's free. Maybe it'll help you vent and the people can give you better examples than me of what you can do in your situation.

I really want to help you because you sound like you are really in a tight bind :/

That's very kind of you Elsa.

i feel the same.

if i could find a way of killing myself id do it

ya no doubt.. me too .. big time suicidal ideations right nowl.. thanks elsa for that link, but damn it.. theyre closed on saturdays .. and how i need them right now :(