Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I've suffered from depression on and off for 20 + years starting at 14 when I was raped by a "friends" boyfriend. This was my first suicide attempt :( My life wasn't very good from the start as I had an alcoholic "mother." She started drinking after my dad died when I was 2 1/2 months old. I was in and out of foster homes from 15-18; they were horrible! When I moved out I was doing pretty good as I was in school and working; then I got pregnant and I was alone because he turned out to be a jerk!
I got through those years as I was still working. I even went back to school and got my diploma! I later went on to college and got my Associates in Business/Entrepreneurship. Then more heartbreak as my son was turning into a jerk; more than the usual teenage angst. I was hospitalized in 2011 because of another suicide attempt over him. I got out and tried to rebuild my life again, but never really did because I lost my house and had to go to a shelter and now I'm living in a place I never wanted to be.
There was a good point after all that as I met my husband and we got married and had a beautiful baby boy. Then tragedy hit again, this time the worst of the worst, my husband was murdered across the street of where we lived at my older sons apartment. I have yet to forgive him as I feel if he hadn't called over here with his drama (that we told him time and time again to handle it himself) I'd still have my husband. And he had so much hatred for my husband which is another reason I feel he had something to do with it.
All the "friends" who were there for me have faded into the background and I never had a big family (just a sister whom I don't speak to and our mother) nor do I have a big circle of friends so now I feel totally alone :( My baby has a god mom but she's been "dating" around a lot so I can't really count on her anymore.
I'm feeling like I should just throw in the towel and call it quits on my "life." I don't even feel I can be a good mom to our baby, especially since I look at my oldest and continue to wonder where did I go wrong. I'm such a loser...:(
I got through those years as I was still working. I even went back to school and got my diploma! I later went on to college and got my Associates in Business/Entrepreneurship. Then more heartbreak as my son was turning into a jerk; more than the usual teenage angst. I was hospitalized in 2011 because of another suicide attempt over him. I got out and tried to rebuild my life again, but never really did because I lost my house and had to go to a shelter and now I'm living in a place I never wanted to be.
There was a good point after all that as I met my husband and we got married and had a beautiful baby boy. Then tragedy hit again, this time the worst of the worst, my husband was murdered across the street of where we lived at my older sons apartment. I have yet to forgive him as I feel if he hadn't called over here with his drama (that we told him time and time again to handle it himself) I'd still have my husband. And he had so much hatred for my husband which is another reason I feel he had something to do with it.
All the "friends" who were there for me have faded into the background and I never had a big family (just a sister whom I don't speak to and our mother) nor do I have a big circle of friends so now I feel totally alone :( My baby has a god mom but she's been "dating" around a lot so I can't really count on her anymore.
I'm feeling like I should just throw in the towel and call it quits on my "life." I don't even feel I can be a good mom to our baby, especially since I look at my oldest and continue to wonder where did I go wrong. I'm such a loser...:(
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((I tried to post this in one of my journals...but DS kept giving me an error message)))Decided to venture to Detroit. I rarely get to this side of the state since my father was murdered on the east side about 41 years ago. My mom and I rarely went to this side, but I recall she visited the Sommset (www.thesomersetcollection.com/) mall with one of her friends a few years ago. She talked about the...
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End of the month and a lack of any better theme I've just decided to give you guys some otters.... just because... Hope you're having a great end to the month!
GBU
DRENA B
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I would just think trying some childcare time out from your baby so you have time for yourself...babies can be hand ful....and that is where childcare comes in...are you working that you could afford a few day care days a week?