We all just want to throw those meds in the ocean, but ultimately I have had to make friends with them knowing that they are helping with the healing,
I'm sorry that you are having flashbacks due to the trauma,
No shame or blame in doing what you think is best
Wishing you peace and healing

I feel the same about the antidepressants.
I feel like I want to know how I would feel if I stop them (with doctor supervision)
But I believe I did about 2 years ago, and I didn’t do well at all. I slowly went back on becaue I felt I needed to. (Doctor supervision).
Hoping it all works out for you. As everyone is different

I slowly took myself off of Cymbalta, which after many years felt I could do without. All was good until it wasn't. I began having night terrors beyond imagination. I had to get back on and will no longer question that again. I hope you find a good place. Medication should help, not create additional stressors. Hugs

You might be surprised with mood stabilizers. I wanted to go med free myself. Ive come to terms that we all need help one way or another getting meds is not a weakness but showing that you can make a promise to yourself to stay better

I feel the same way. I take about 15 pills a day and most of them are anti-depressants. I will say 2 years ago I went through TMS treatments and was almost completely OFF my meds and was actually well on the way. Until I caught my wife cheating on me on our second wedding anniversary. If I had not had the TMS treatment I am sure I would have taken my life. I just got done with the divorce and I am having a very hard time dealing so I am going to start treatments again and hopefully they will work as good if not better the second time around.

I wish you luck and big hugs

I cut down with Dr supervision as others said I did well. Then bad thoughts I am doing ok with meds. I don't like them either., I feel I am more stable with them. Wishing you the best

I did that once and I ended up with terrible withdrawal symptoms. It's hard accepting meds, but try to think about it as a chemical imbalance that's a medical problem. If someone has diabetes they need to take their insulin even tho it sucks. I totally get your pain as someone who has been on medication since 14 (I'm 22 now). I was always worried about it affecting my success or personality, but my personality and success got better because I felt better. Sending love and light! I have also dealt with sexual abuse and that feeling of just wanting to be normal again. Trauma like that changes you forever and I'm sorry you have to go through that too. If you ever need someone to chat with I'm here!