Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I'm writing on here 'cause I feel crappy and I don't know who to talk to. Normally I'd talk to my bf but he's working. I've been feeling really bad about myself. I currently weigh the most I ever have in my life. I'm at 164 pounds and I'm a fairly short woman. It feels weird calling myself a woman I still feel like a stupid kid. I cry sometimes when I look at myself. I feel fat and ugly and worthless. Others tell me nice and positive things but I know I'm not as attractive as I used to be. I find myself wishing I could safely starve until it goes away but I know I can't do that. It's hard finding time and money to be healthier. I hate myself. I wish I could be more like someone else. My mom never wants to hear me talk about this stuff, she cuts it off. I just want to be pretty and happy and normal. I'm just an ugly, fat, zombie. With how out of it I always am I feel like I am barely a person. I find myself staring off into space, I may as well not move unless I have to. I wish I were better for my family, friends, bf, and in general. I wish I could be one of those happy, pretty girls.
I had a problem with organization, and I still at absolute best viewed charitably, average organizational skills, But that's still better than terrible. I worked regularly to improve themselves, write down suggestions when I go wrong, and work on self-improvement- that's all you can do.