Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I am realllly struggling, both mentally and physically. I have hypothyroid, diabetes, arthritis in my back and knees. I hurt so much that it makes my depression even worse, i eat more when i am depressed, therefore i hurt more. I even gave up going to the gym. I feel like people are laughing at me because i am so overweight. I hate myself and this whole thing has become a pattern that, if not turned around soon, threatens to just keep going. I have lost the will to even try anymore. I get up and go to work only because i HAVE TO to live. Luckily what i do is pretty easy and i don't see many people. I keep asking God to please end my life so that i can be in peace and shed my disgusting, ugly and defective body. He isn't listening. I wish i could go to sleep and not wake up. I hurt so much i feel like crying most of the time.
-
A tree outside where I live is dying, seemingly from dog urine----with the bully in my building going out his way to not only have his dog urinate there but to have the dog urinate on the fence and sign I bought to try save the tree----and then slide the sign under my apt door.Turns out that was a TRIGGER for me----bullying and humialtion right out of high school. I didn't realize it at the...
Can just exercise at home just going for a walk helps the mind and body. But I'm sure no ones laughing at you If they are you have to rise above as you are the one trying to improve yourself their just stuck. The old saying comes to mind....People who matter don't mind and people who mind don't matter. Meaning that the supportive people are the ones you need to listen to.
Not sure if you can get it there but people have been swearing that Gonna arthritis cream is the way to go for the arthritis.
Diet as said I'm diabetic myself so I stock the fridge with water bottles (can refill them often). So easy to grab just like cans of soft drink. I sort of trick the mind that I'm having a treat. (must be my inner child). ((I do have the diet drinks but find I crave more food on them (go figure)) Do the same with fruits and veggies. Make it as fun as you can. So you eat more of them. Treat yourself every now and then with junk food. . Otherwise it's just punishing yourself and you give up on the diet. Feeling even worse about yourself. .
Is some things on Dep that might help http://www.dailystrength.org/people/587001/journal/2942217
Most importantly be gentle with yourself...Baby steps to change...Reward yourself often.
So I am going to do it. Everything hurts, and I am just a mess. I got there one plateful at a time. The things we do to ourselves, eh?
Peace be with you!
a few years ago i had such pain that i wanted to die---seems that i was a sloppy bike rider and maybe had some sort of temporary? hernia; i wear two jock straps for bicycling now.
bicycling is good cause it's not bad on the knees or ankles, and exercise is actually good to reduce arthritis! maybe an indoor bike would do good?
i try and try to stay away from food---including not keeping any extra food in my apt. my refrigorator is empty, and unplugged. I don't have a microwave, dishes, plates, or metal utinsels. i have to go to the store when i'm hungry, and then it might be a can of something to eat cold, with a plastic spoon or fork. i live by myself, so i can live/eat this way.
i was forcing myself to eat carrots for a healthy, constant, snack, though i broke a tooth from that!
sometimes hard to believe i've lived to be 54.
But you Got to keep moving. Little bit each day. I know it hurts, I know it's hard, yes it sucks but it just gets ten times worse if we don't move. Being sedentary does not help arthritis.
There are free Youtube videos with exercise. Libraries have DVDs and videos too. Sometimes there are exercise programs on tv if you have cable. Even if you turn on some music and do some chair dancing it is getting the body to move.
Diet is the main key if physical activity is limited. You are caught in a vicious cycle of eating because of being depressed but then the weight gain causes more emotional and physical stress and depression. I do understand about emotional eating, I struggle with it myself and have to keep a check on it all the time. I am currently trying to lose some weight myself and I understand the challenge.
it's important to address the reason why you eat and when you eat and what you eat. Perhaps start a food diary. write down what, when, why.
It makes me sad to hear you say that you hate yourself.,Please start to change what you are telling yourself. Start off with something small that you like about yourself. Grow from there. Love. Love is healing. Hate is destructive.
You CAN turn it around. You just need encouragement and support which you can get here. And.
Maybe some counseling may help too if it's available to you.
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.
Take that first step forward.
IF U SET UR MIND TO IT U CAN SO ANYTHING JUST GO SLOW AT FIRST & SOON U WILL SEE THAT LITE AT THE END OF THAT TUNNEL & U KEEP ON KEEPIN ON WRITING HERE & THEN SOMEDAY U WILL LOOK BACK ON THIS & SAY WHO WAS THAT PERSON BACK THEN & U WILL LUV THE NEW YOU...... PLEASE LET US KNOW HOW UR DOING ----- I CARE........(((HUGGGIES)))).ANGEL