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Feeling alone

afrodeity
afrodeity

I just started therapy about a month ago. I'm 26 and I've had a childhood filled with trauma, depression, and anxiety. In my session last week, after telling my therapist about my mom, she let me know that I was describing emotional abuse. I reread my childhood diaries and realized I forgot about all of the abuse I experienced and that my mom and little sister are actually emotionally abusive. 


So in the past week I learned that I need to get away from my family because they're abusive, I have codependency issues/love addiction, and I have no real support. It's hard enough talking about depression but I just realized I've been experiencing 26 years of abuse without realizing it. I feel completely alone. My friends care about me, but not to the point that they want to hear my talk about my depressing life every time they see me. People don't even ask how I'm REALLY doing. I've been working on being more honest with my friends and let them be there for me because I'm very closed off, but after telling them that I'm not doing so well lately, most don't have anything to say in reply.


I feel like everything I know is toxic, myself included. Nothing is what I thought it was and I'm not sure what to do.


misleadingsmile
misleadingsmile
Sometimes it's easier to open up to a complete stranger...PM me if you want to talk
vwidow
vwidow
Afro, It's sad when the ones closest to us are the problem. Home is supposed to be a haven from the world and a place to get strong. So if you're constantly brought down there I would seek a better place even if it's alone. You'd be amazed what peace you could reach with that. You shouldn't live in fear or dread..."be careful who you surround yourself with" my friend says. Hope your betterment is close at hand. Acts 2:38 Acts22:16 fyi
Lauriegirl
Lauriegirl
No need to feel alone. I'm here
LeanKC
LeanKC
I've had a very similar upbringing. You're not alone.
sharaninmd
sharaninmd
Many of us here can relate to what your childhood was like and how you are feeling now. I have spent my whole life struggling with depression and anxiety and feeling that there is no one who really wants to hear about it. You just started your therapy. Give yourself more time with the therapist. They will listen to you and give you coping skills to handle how you feel. Everyone at this site is here to listen to you. You are never alone.
vwidow
vwidow
Majorly you can always seek out God and his Word (it's alive) if you haven't done so yet in you're life. He will be your rock if you let him. "Seek his face evermore"
mels
mels
Facing the fact that I had no friends was a hard realization, but in the end being content with being alone helped me tremendously. It's hard to accept that you don't have many people (or anyone) to turn to, but incredibly empowering when you can pick yourself up and build healthier relationships. I'm so sorry you're experiencing all of this. PM me anytime.
Community LeaderWanderingVet
WanderingVet
I can well imagine how tough it would be for that realization. The GOOD news is you have realized a truth, ... which will set you free.

Such a sudden realization is life changing. I can imagine your state at this time. Do not be afraid, and do not be angry. CONCENTRATE on your new freedom ... mental freedom.

Indeed ... get away from that evil ... but make a plan and go 'slow'. Time and truth heals.

I am glad you have this therapist. She sound like a good one. If you haven't already, tell her "I need help with this" and she will give it to you. It's her job and she is highly trained to do it.

Congratulations on your new freedom. Enjoy it. Of course we, here on DS, are on your side and stand by whatever we can do for you (as limited as it is). You are not alone.
pepper2434
pepper2434
You are not alone, I had a childhood with abuse and trauma and I have had therapy for a lot of my life, I was able to find a good church that preaches the Word and have made some friends who love me for me, when it comes to the stuff I am going through I have to be careful who I talk too because a lot of the times my friends don't know what to say and they feel helpless so they withdraw from me, I have learned to draw my strength from the Lord . He has brought me much comfort and I have also found ways to help others and volunteered. Have you thought about maybe a support group that has people who are going through the same things? I know meeting people who have been through the same things helps me to open up easier than someone who doesn't know. If you want to talk I m here. I will be praying for you..