I finally had a day where I could take a forced nap and it didnt go so well. I fell asleep around 4pm and had nightmare after nightmare making me even more exhausted. I woke up at 10 pm crying, I have to be up at 5 am for work then school afterwards. I've tried going back to sleep but I'm too scared so I've been sitting here crying and feeling lost. I can't miss another day of work or school.
I feel like I'm at my wits end, I would normally take Zquil or nyquil but it just makes me drowsy and doesnt keep me asleep. I've tried meditating for a few hours now but I'm too shaken up to relax.
I keep having thoughts of killing myself in the bath tub or just going for a walk and never coming back. I wont do it but the thoughts sound really sweet to me right now.
Is this room for just coke?
I'm usually pretty strong. But when this urge hits me, I'm helpless. Will this site/ group help me?Do many people come here? I can't do it alone