Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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tigerlily18
tigerlily18

I should be happy. I'm now engaged my mom is somewhat better and the house isn't as messed up. But I'm not. I want to kill myself more then I have in years. Maybe it would be for the best o mean my fiance doesn't seem to want to talk to me right now and I don't know what I did but I had to of done something. I make everyone's life hell. I can't do anything right. And everyone thinks I have to this happy perfect little princess when all I want to the lay down in the sun and never get up or wake up for that matter. Or I could get in a car and drive as far away as I can both would make my family's life better. Cause no matter what I do I'm always hurting someone here, I try to make sure everyone is happy and has what they need. And it's never enough. And on top of that this is the month my baby would have been born if I hadn't had a miscarriage. So there that too sometime make a me feel like I did something wrong, that I killed it. But you know we aren't to think of those things we r just to sit there and look pretty and smile. But I'm fucking done smiling.

Community LeaderWanderingVet
WanderingVet
I feel terrible for you. So sorry about all this. I am so serious when I say you need intense professional help. You describe so many possibilities for all the misery, only a pro could help you through it all.
mlj6019
mlj6019
I want to say congratulations on your engagement and at the same time I’m sorry you are hurting. We all wear masks sometimes and try to live up to what others expect. That does nothing but set us up for failure. Others can’t make us happy either. That comes from within. My heart hurts for you about your miscarriage. I know first hand how painful it is. I have had 3. You are not alone. It was nothing I did and it’s not anything you did. You did not kill your baby. These things happen, as unfortunate as it is. Life just hurts. It’s hard. It’s a struggle.

Take off your mask and be honest with yourself and get in touch with who YOU are as a person and as an individual. You are unique. Communication in a relationship is key. Work that out now before the marriage. Don’t be afraid to be honest. A good relationship is based on honesty and trust. You must have that to build a marriage. I definitely would seek out a professional counselor, if you haven’t already. You need help to balance out your depression so that it doesn’t control your life. Your depression is not who YOU are. Hang in there and I wish you the best.
haleyskeeters
haleyskeeters
You are not a failure, your miscarriage was not your fault, your fiance may be upset and distance for a completely different reason, you do not make everyone's life hell, i am sure you do many things right, and please do not try to make everyone happy because if you do you will always feel a short coming. You cant make everyone happy and that is okay!
If your fiance didnt love you or if he thought you made his life hell he wouldnt be with you.
Communication is key within yourself and learning how you feel but also with your loved ones.
There are so many things that can help with depression, I encourage you greatly to talk to a profession and seek the help you deserve. You are worthy of living an amazing life you deserve and so many people want that for you. Dont give up hun!