Last night I decided to get high as fuck with some friends and the night did not go as planned. Basically i was ditched halfway through the night and ended up just going home. I still don't know if it's the weed but i got hella emotional. All i wanted to do was end my life. Like I dont really play that big of a role in people's lives so I don't think it would hurt them all that much. Plus, they would get over it. Obviously I haven't done anything yet. But I would be lying if I said i wasn't think about hurting myself. I really....just don't want to be here anymore.
Cleaned my entrance to my home couple of days ago. Vacuumed. Put away summer shoes!! Put away lighter jackets. And used some Fantastik spray on walls with lots of fingerprints on them. Put down small carpet to absorb moisture from snowy boots. So far so good - sometimes my dog thinks that’s his bed and musses up the carpet :(i even vacuumed the outside entrance and welcome mat. Feels good...