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Down the rabbit hole...again.

harleygraham
harleygraham
Today hasn't even provided a trigger, and I feel like curling into a ball and bawling my eyes out. The drive to do so is smothering me like a thick smoke. I've got nothing to be sad about today, but it's sitting on my chest and I feel like I'm being grabbed by my ankles and dragged down this rabbit hole again and again, my fingers trying to dig into the ground to stop it and my resistance is just futile. I guess I'm here to seek a friend, seeing as my social anxiety for human interaction makes me want to run and hide.
peterthegreat
peterthegreat
My family doctor said I might develop diabetes and high blood pressure because I cannot do exercises. Because I have depression.More bad news for me. I like to be your friend.
LittleSadie
LittleSadie
It's good that you are reaching out. I often dread the day, wondering what my depression or anxiety has in store for me for the day. It's really hard to fight against. I assume you are working with a doctor to figure this out. I am. You are not the only one who feels this way. Keep fighting for yourself, no matter what. I will send you a friend request. Hugs, Sadie
billwfriend
billwfriend
down the rabbit hole....boy did that story ever take people to unknown places....off with her head and the queen of hearts ect....but in reality we all face issues like this from time to time....and one way thru these tough times is with medications.....do you see a PDoc? I would if I were in your shoes....I take an anti depressant med myself....it pretty much leaves me hollow inside but at least I am not terribly depressed and wishing to hurt myself....hugs
alitlmorsly
alitlmorsly
I call it the hell hole. I guess rabbit hole sounds a little better, but yet that makes me think of bugs bunny. Lol Nothing funny about it, no matter what you call it. Depression sucks! I take meds for OCD, but they also helps me from being "dragged down the rabbit hole", as much. I'm sending you a friend request. Sly
bridgie101
bridgie101
I am so sorry about granddad. it's a real lesson to us all though: if he knew how much he hurt you all, maybe he wouldn't have done it.
lightwarrior
lightwarrior
Hello Harley,
Seems like You have a feeling of hopelessness daily and perhaps since You still got old scars to heal, they might have a lot do with You feeling that way, do You think so ?

From what I notice, You have been suffering a lot and the medications Youve taken or still are taking might consume your energy a lot, although blocking some negative stuff... But in my own experience, medication blocks the reflection of what is within and when it manages to block a bad fruit like negative thinking, it gets you chained to it, dependent and scared of trying to live without it. Medication can work but its a temporary solution for problems which are deeper than chemical science can reach and understand.

From my perspective, at the same time You have nothing to be sad about, You have everything to be sad about, its all about the past You continue to carry within yourself, the burden of your dissapointments and painful events. You do not deserve to be enslaved by the bad things that happened to You !!!!!

If Youd like to talk and consider fighting back and healing instead of just enduring it and getting used to it, feel free to contact me because Id like to help you help yourself if I can.

ps: You are not a freak, no matter how much darkness You carry within or how much left alone and rejected by people You are, You are not a freak, do not feel like one !!!!
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