Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I can't describe my low. I have no motivation to get up, do my job, engage with my spouse, etc. I have no desire to be intimate. I don't feel worthy and I don't live up to his expectations. I feel like an awful wife. I work from home now, daily. The stress and pressure is still on but throw on top of that covid and stress with my kids. I feel robbed of certain years of their lives that should be fun and enjoyable. They aren't getting those either and I can only hope it won't mentally scar them. I feel trapped, unloved, unappreciated, and just downright shitty.
No motivation, no happy times, no nothing, sure sounds familiar. We're all going to be scarred.
The only thing that's keeping my sanity is getting outside. I've always been a little bit of a loner, so I enjoy going to a new neighborhood by myself, checking out the restaurants (not eating though) or the stores or the old homes. Maybe to keep your sanity, and be happier in front of your kids and husband, you should remove yourself from your home once in a while, escape it. Take an exercise walk, do some shopping, or take the kids somewhere new. Just get out for a bit. Just an idea, maybe that would help.
I'd imagine that your husband and kids have scary tales to share with you as well. And much of what you fret is what's common with all peoples of the world. The pandemic has altered the course of the whole wide world. All of us are afraid at the same time. I'm praying for us all to feel sane again. We will never take life for granted again. I pray deeply to be present in my life. I hope the same prayer for you today.
Best of all hugs to you! You may just start living again any day now.