Your first 2 sentences kind of contradict each other....

Are you going to AA or seeing a counselor?

Getting sick from regular old life is .... well life. If you're sick from drinking too much that's a different story and you need to get some help.

When your throat is better, hopefully you've seen a Dr. and are on meds, you'll be able to get back to running, so this is temporary.

Try AA and see a Counselor so you can stay on the right track.

Good to hear you’re drinking less. That’s a start. However I agree you need to get professional help or at least AA. Someone who understands what you’re going through and can provide guidance in kicking the habits that are impacting your life. Continue to run. It releases endorphins that will help with the depression you seem to also be experiencing. Praying for your strength and recovery.

I have been convinced of the total absitence model. But for the moment I dont want to drink. I was never an out and out alcholic. Anyway thanks for comments

I understand what you mean about "going back to bed". I have been fighting not going back to bed for awhile now but here am I again in bed typing and reaching out because that is all that I have right now. On a different scale, my roommate (who says he is depressed) makes himself get up and do something like hanging out with friend and have small party's and drink (now he has his second DUI), goes running, hiking and who knows what else. He is an old friend who had asked me to come here because he wanted to help me out. After getting here, all I could do was lay in bed and then he started changing his attitude towards me like I "am second class". He would say "all you do is lay in bed 20 hours a day". Well, he works the night shift and hasn't got a clue that I am awake most the time and really suffering. I over hear him and his friends making me the joke of their drinking party downstairs (as I was not invited to join). He had me come and stay and then say "I am to depressed to help you". Really …. Anyway' I binge drink too and then my depression gets so much more deeper. I think binge drinking is a quick way to party and to fall asleep and/or just self abuse to not feel what one is feeling. My point in writing what I have written is to reach out and have you realize that there is someone out there like you. In the beginning, going to bed was easy and then it becomes all you can think about. There really should be a bed anonymous group out there (of course we would have to meet online on days it is not to difficult to even pick up the phone. For now, I wish that I would have stayed in m own pace so I could suffer alone but instead, I trusted in my friend and thought he would always be there as a friend. As stupid and rambling is my words, Your not alone.

Drinking causes depression so you might want to start with a sponsor to see if He can help you, or she can help you going to aa

If he's drinking a lot, he's got some problems to work out. It must be hard to have a roommate that is partying all the time. I'm sorry. You have to go through that. Maybe it's time to find another roommate. That doesn't drink. I don't know just thoughts.