Depression Support Group

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rayray215
rayray215
I feel like ill never be happy I still have a hard time accepting my close cousin I lost to suicide in 06 and to make matters worse like 2 months after he committed suicide I got diagnosed with diabetes its goting much worse these last 3 yrs I don't care for it 1 bit cause im a lazy peace of shit
heretic
heretic
I have never experienced happiness. Don't have a clue what it would be like.
I am resigned to it now. I am 53 and don't expect anything to get better.
deleted_user
deleted_user
rayray,

How about getting some therapy? If you cannot afford it there are many resources for free counseling. I am so deeply sorry for the loss of your Cousin.
Stawiski
Stawiski
Yes I think you should try to get some therapy. It is hard to go things all alone. With a little support and positive guidance I am sure you can grieve the loss of your cousin, get more healthy, and experience a more joyful existence.
rayray215
rayray215
I do have insurance for therapy but transportation will be the problem and I know thrpist wanna c you once a week the nearest therapist is a 40 min drive one way so a 40 min drive 1 way up n back once a week that's a lotta gas n wear n tear on your vechile n not to mention I have so many other drs apps being diabetic I have my eye dr once a ye endo every 3 months my foot dr every 3 months diabetes shoes I can get once a yr but I see them a couple times cause they eplace my insoles its to much
cinben
cinben
Ive had major depression x many years as well,i feel as i get older (55y.o.)its getting worse,my dr increased my meds ,i still have no energy,feel "yucky".I always am in awe of those happy -type people,always laughing ,smililing,etc..if i had one wish ,it would be a "normal" brain....