hey im here for you dont give up now... people need you.. i need you to be strong... let me help you... i been there before and who knows I feel that way again but life will always have its up and downs... i know I may be young and my life is heptic and crazy. full of emotions and energy.. but i want to help you and get u back on your feet... i cant live another day hearing people have killed themselves... NO... you are stronger than that. you have the power to be more.. find that little thing inside you that is good focuse on that and make it bigger.. i care about you even though I don't really know you... i still care tho and I always will for everyone..

I sent you a private message Dear. This is a wonderful place to find support and companionship. Many are facing the same things you are. Suicide is never the answer though. Things will get better. Just stay with us to see. God bless. Prayers.

I appreciate the responses. I feel very hopeless and many of my attempts to make things better have resulted in nothing or making things worse. I don't want to try anymore. I'm really tired of trying and getting no where.

I like your alias- do you own cats- do you have any pets? You certainly
are here for a reason- I am sure when things pick up you will feel better.I
want to share something with you and that is that everyone has had a moment
or days when they are like hey screw this shiit Im out. You cant tell because
people wear masks, they dress real nice or talk real sweet and behind
closed doors- living the hell.So what do we do- master the art of going
inwards.You have a shelter within.A place you have never seen before because you have been too busy looking from the outside in. Looking at the situation or circumstances around you or that surround you and then relating
it to who you are within. No it should be the other way around.The most profound relationship that you will ever have in this world is with yourself.
You say you want to end it because you have not yet discovered that beautiful space within the quiet silence that is approved validated-that which
brings the confidence to be able to say- eff my circumstances I matter, Im gold Ill prosper no matter, hey me I have your back-when things are up when they are down, your valued always,hold your head up. Open your arms and tell the Universe Goddammit all in this world is not perfect- but what will
always remain perfect is your crystal perception of yourself and that directly comes from you nurturing and love yourself- I rock myself holding myself , loving myself when there have been times for no love readily available,We
are for you. Go through the groups on this site look at how many members are enrolled in these groups- we all have issues, Like I am so embarrassed- like I belong to like multiple groups-yes I have this much shit going on. listen we are all here to Fight- this is my stance- I don't care what shit cards life deals to me it wont get me down I love being jovial I love being happy I am in love with being happy, I survive on seeing joy in others. I want to see the joy in you.
You want a hug I will give you that You want my love I am here for you, Love yourself please to transform in this moment The Universe will assist you if you ask it but you have to want to love this crazy mixed up thing called life you have to be In to Win.
LOVE YOU !HUGS Please see helpful contact info below:
Suicide Prevention / Depression

USA: Hopeline (Suicide): 1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433)
USA: Suicide Hotline: 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-8255)
USA: Teen Covenant House Nineline: 1-800-999-9999
USA: SOS Teen Hotline: 1-800-355-0660
USA: Directory of local helplines / centers
UK: Samaritans (Nat'l and local): 116 123 or jo@samaritans.org
CAN: Directory of helplines / centers
Global directory of suicide hotlines

I private message you as well just to be sure you have all the info
and you received it and you are okay <3 Hugs Hugs

You are probably sick of the usual bullshit people tell you. I was there too. Thier advice never worked. I felt just like you. There was just no way out regardleee of how many scenarios I played out that could possibly make me happy. The only thing that worked it understanding that I had to live for myself. It may be good or bad. But I had to give myself a chance. You have nothing to lose by keep on living. Just keep going and you will build your strength.

I honestly never wanted to be here.

I have "I never asked for this" tattooed on my arm because I would trade my life for someone else's who lost theirs. I just don't want to be here.

At your age ... I suspect a severe anxiety disorder. If I am right, it is easily treatable. The severity makes it urgent that you discuss this with a medical doctor. Please do this at your earliest opportunity.

Yes, u do have a severe anxiety disorder and PTSD and neither of them are easily curable but thanks for this highly professional and educated guess from a moderator. Most people are here because they don't have regular access to a doctor and it's really privileged to assume everyone does. I have had access and have just been prescribed medication after medication which does not work. So now I am here, venting because the medical community failed me and being told to return to it.

I should honestly just stop posting here. Either I'm told to see a doctor or find Jesus.

Wow. I don't even know what to say. It makes me so sad to hear you say this because I too have been there. I know how awful it is to feel like you have no one; to feel like you don't belong on this planet. Believe it or not, you're not the only one. I know you feel alone, but you don't have to be. You did the right thing by coming onto this site and looking for support. That shows your true strength. I'm proud of you, and I truly believe that with proper help you will get through this <3 xoxo

I feel the way you do. it's sad that so many people feel this way or have felt this way. I don't have any answers or advice. I just wanted to say hi. I hope you feel better. occasionally the worst feelings ease up for at least a little while. i'm sorry you are so alone.