Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I've been trying to sleep but I can't. I couldn't turn my brain off. I was thinking that I should just kill myself because I'm so depressed all the time. But then I started thinking...
The things that I get depressed about are not "little" things. I'm a single mother who is unemployed. I was diagnosed with depression and bipolar years ago. Now I've been diagnosed with PTSD from my daughter's father who beat and raped me. After almost 3 years of not being in her life, he decides he wants visitation. It's suoervised visitation, so he has to come to my house. I have to look at him. He still refuses to pay the child support. One of my best friends just told me he has cancer. Any one of these things would be enough to bring down a "normal" person, let alone all of them at once.
I guess I just don't know what the next step is. I'm in therapy. I take antidepressants. But I still feel like everything is at a standstill. I guess I'm afraid that this is as good as it gets. Maybe I'm damaged beyond repair.
The mood swings are getting more intense and more frequent. Talking to people helps for the moment but its like its never enough. I don't know if I just don't open enough or what. And the bad mood seem to last longer.
I just don't know what to do next.
The things that I get depressed about are not "little" things. I'm a single mother who is unemployed. I was diagnosed with depression and bipolar years ago. Now I've been diagnosed with PTSD from my daughter's father who beat and raped me. After almost 3 years of not being in her life, he decides he wants visitation. It's suoervised visitation, so he has to come to my house. I have to look at him. He still refuses to pay the child support. One of my best friends just told me he has cancer. Any one of these things would be enough to bring down a "normal" person, let alone all of them at once.
I guess I just don't know what the next step is. I'm in therapy. I take antidepressants. But I still feel like everything is at a standstill. I guess I'm afraid that this is as good as it gets. Maybe I'm damaged beyond repair.
The mood swings are getting more intense and more frequent. Talking to people helps for the moment but its like its never enough. I don't know if I just don't open enough or what. And the bad mood seem to last longer.
I just don't know what to do next.
I'm deeply sorry about your situation. What can I say, find a light in your life.
My light is my kid. He's the only reason I want to live.
If I could hold your hand, I would. And I would hug you too.
I can not give you anything but my sympathy. And I think it's very important that we love ourselves.
I hope I'm not saying gibberish and I hope you understand.
Sometimes I wish we could have some sort of telepathic connection by which we could transmit to each other energy, loving, warm, soothing and positive energy which brings us back to life. I wish my words doing some of that.
With all my warmth,
Diana