Hi, I'm so sorry you were bullied in school! Those that a doing the bullying are just insecure people and need to make them feel better about themselves. They are cowards! These evil idiots can really break a spirit! It's remarkable that you have survived such abuse all these years. It takes a lot of courage to do that!

Do you have a therapist to help you with your depression? I hope you find someone that can help you.

I tell you what usually happens when you get out of school...the bullies fail to succeed due to their stupidity and poor morals and the victims succeed with determination, because you know how to work hard and take the punches of the reality of this world.

Please do not let these bullies control your whole life! You will break free once you are out of school and you have a whole new opportunity to make a new identity for yourself! Hang in there! Hug!

yeah, I had lost a good deal of steam yesterday and this morning, I think it depends on the person tho, I was knocking it earlier this morning, but watching motivation videos on utube in the mornings has helped me, it's "6 minutes to start your day right", you can start from there. I hope this is helpful.

Hi. I am so glad that you decided to reach out. Keep everything locked inside really kept me in a bad place. I hope that beginning to talk about what you are experiencing can help you to overcome the negative. Change also helped me to overcome being depressed. Once I was out of high school, I moved to a new city, started a new school, and made new friends. It was easier to find the hope with new beginnings. After college, I moved again and made even better friends who had experienced things in life like I had. Those are the friends I still rely on even though I have moved several more times. I also had to learn to talk myself out of my negative feelings. Just because I felt something negative, it didn't make it true. Once I recognized the negative, I would have to tell myself things like, "They may not like me, but that doesn't mean everyone won't like me. I will find someone." Or "today may be a really rough day, but it will get better." "Just because high school is tough, it doesn't mean the rest of life will be like this." I agree with a pp that the people bullying are just as insecure. They want to make themselves feel better. It is not fair that we have to deal with the fallout of their decisions, but it can make you a stronger person, too. Keep choosing life. Keep choosing to move forward. Don't let the past define you because you don't live there anymore. Choose hope. Choose different friends. Sometimes going forward means doing things that you don't want to do in the moment but will help you get to where you want to be in the long run. I don't always feel like going out to places and meeting new people, but I go anyway because I want to make new friends and learn new things. I also grew in my relationship to God and started studying His Word on a deeper level. That gave me a new foundation on which to base my identity. God tells me who I am in Him and who He is. In His word He says he will never forsake me or leave me. He gives me purpose and hope and love that will never end. He is my strength when I am weak. I hope you can find what you need to keep hoping and keep going forward! Hugs!!

Must agree 100% with CassiChase:

"I tell you what usually happens when you get out of school...the bullies fail to succeed due to their stupidity and poor morals and the victims succeed with determination, because you know how to work hard and take the punches of the reality of this world. "

Yep. Trust me, I'm 48 and I have observed this over and over. High school is very hard, but it is also very temporary so hang in there. It was the same way when I was in high school too- certain ones had the run of the place and there was this hierarchy that never made sense. The people who deserved the least amount of respect always seemed to be the recipients of the most respect. Past graduation it certainly changes though. Completely different world. Hugs