actually I guess I do. I can't help but notice how different I am from other people all the time

I agree with whodoesshethinksheis. I can't help but notice every day how different I am from others. And how much worse I am now than what I used to be.

I think it's pretty hard not to when you have chronic pain day after day and the depression becomes worse because of the pain or whatever makes it worse for others. I get up as early as I can and get as much as I can done, before 2 or 3 comes around. After that, I am no good to anyone, including myself. The only person that can get my attention to do anything is my dog, Anny. When she has to go, she has to go... Such is life.

It is a slap of reality in the morning when it is time to take my meds...then I think of it, otherwise I try and just keep swimming. Some days I do good to get through the day and work towards the weekend and sometimes it is great. Then I get another reminder at night when I am counting out the pills again...but I go to sleep hoping I did the best I could with what I had at least for that day.

I wish I could forget about it sometimes. It's been a constant, 24/7, for the past 5 years. Since my mom died really, things got bad to worse everywhere after that. My goal is to prevent the really dark thoughts from hanging around.
Like GrammyBear, I depend on my dog, Anya. I would shut down completely again if I hadn't gotten her. Good dog.

I think I am angry a lot of the time that I don't FEEL like everyone else. I haven't for 20 plus years. I tried to take my life when I was 17 years old because I thought I did feel like everyone else, I just couldn't deal with it. There was some reflief being diagonosted but it never made anything better. You just have to get through each day. I try to think of everyday as a trouphy...but it is just not easy.

I don't feel anywhere near as depressed as I used to. My mood now is kind of decent. However, all of my other symptoms of depression are as severe as can be, especially the suicidal thoughts, although I wouldn't act on them. When you're thinking of killing yourself 24/7 and/or at least how badly you don't want to be alive, it's kind of hard not to think about it.

When a person is in extreme pain, they can't ignore what they're feeling. It's there. It would be extremely difficult to not think about that overwhelming pain that is ruining every aspect of your life, if you get what I'm saying.

I'm pretty sure it's that way for any other severe, painful illness, whether it's mental or physical. My mom was saying something about this the other day about how she doesn't like to think about her multiple sclerosis because it makes her sad as well as her thinking about me having depression, anxiety, seizures, my undiagnosed neurological condition, etc. Although she tries to not think about it, I know that she can not help but think about it because she is always in pain. Some days are worse than others, but her pain never goes away.

I was going to post a topic like this when my mom mentioned this, but I wasn't sure how I wanted to present it/word it.

Yes, i do think about it every single day. I wish I could not for a day or two but it's always there in my mind. LIke kristims08 said, i think every day about how different i am :( I wish it wasn't that big of a deal.

For example, I happen to have a very big scar on my stomach. It's about 12 inches long. I almost never think about it even though I see it every day. I almost never notice it. I wish my anxiety and depression were something I could just not notice...

I think about it every day. I wish I didn't. :0(

It really depends. Some times I do think a lot about it. Other times I just don't think about it at all. Other times, I think about it from time to time but don't let it consume my day.

I think about everyday and as others have said I can't help to notice how different I am how weird I am

I think about it when I think about wanting to meet people. Otherwise......I really don't think about it unless I'm reminded by something that screams ....hey you have issues. I dont mind explaining myself to people but I absolutely do not like having to do it but usually people are very polite and understanding. I mainly just tell them .....hey I have a lot of trust issues and emotional issues. I find people are usually understanding even if it is foreign to them personally. I don't think anyone here is that much different from anyone else in life. Just because some do not have a diagnosis....does not mean they don't have some of the very same problems. Some just use different things to combat the illness .

I try not to think about it. But when my boyfriend comes home and tells me about his day at work, I always remember, I can not work because of it. I remember when my SSDI is gone for the month and there is nothing to replace it. I just wish that I didnt have my depression or anxiety. . But I do. it makes things really tough.

some days go by without thinking of depression, but they are rare

try not to, but inevitably have a train of thought at some point where i have to stop and think about whether that`s the sad face talking or not.