Everyone hates me. I can't do anything right and I constantly diassapoint my family, friends, people I don't even know very well. I can't work, go to school, or hold a commitment. And what's worse is that people say "this isn't you" like I don't already know that. I'm not stupid....I don't miss class or break of a commitment bc I want to, it's because I physically CANT do it. I freak out. I want to stay in bed forever and never bother anyone. Because on those days where I am in bed and my parents come to "check on me" at night, I know I didn't miss anything. I know they didn't miss me or need me. They're day went on perfectly fine. They don't need me in class, my friends have other friends, my family has other things to do. I'm just at a loss for what to do.
I feel so emotionally exhausted. Lately I can bearly even take proper care of myself. I put on the biggest smile when loved ones are arround me, but the truth is inside I'm falling apart. The only positive is that I'm not having suicidal thoughts, I just just feel extremely depressed. Everyday getting up is struggle. The job I have is a really good job, but due to my depression small tasks seem...
This is just a vent with a bunch of rhetorical questions. Not really looking for answers, just ears/eyes.