Everyone hates me. I can't do anything right and I constantly diassapoint my family, friends, people I don't even know very well. I can't work, go to school, or hold a commitment. And what's worse is that people say "this isn't you" like I don't already know that. I'm not stupid....I don't miss class or break of a commitment bc I want to, it's because I physically CANT do it. I freak out. I want to stay in bed forever and never bother anyone. Because on those days where I am in bed and my parents come to "check on me" at night, I know I didn't miss anything. I know they didn't miss me or need me. They're day went on perfectly fine. They don't need me in class, my friends have other friends, my family has other things to do. I'm just at a loss for what to do.
I just moved to a new city for a job, without my family, and it is stressing me out. My anxiety is getting the best of me. I never thought that being away from them would be so stressful, but the anxiety has hit me hard. I am trying to form new social/support groups, which helps, and I am trying to stay busy. Has anyone out there been in this situation?
5 days ago I called a so called confidential Chat line. Obviously I was under emotional pressure and just wanted someone to listen and talk to. Well, the police, basically a swat team, arrived at my front door, in front of my neighbors, and "Baker acted" me. Now I'm just humiliated and degraded on top of everything else. Because I had a panic attack. So I wish well meaning individuals would cease...