Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I've been ruminating over this one for ages. Or have I been too naive and stupid to come to an epiphany that's required?
Am I worthless? You can't define that. Nobody but me can. But, as of recently, I feel my self-perception is negative, but true. What if I really am unimportant? Is it mere verisimilitude again, or could be that I deserve being depressed, sad, lonely and unappreciated?
I got a perfect 10 CGPA, yet my parents fail to appreciate me. Nobody does. Except a few, which seems like a token gesture any ways.
I've never had the feeling of being appreciated rightly, or being loved. It's something that I thought I deserved. Now I see how it is, I don't. It's a delusion that the brain passes to itself, that I deserve appreciation and love simply because everyone else gets it but me.
That's not the main thing though. I have lost interest in everything. No hobbies at all. Trying for 7 months to find something to motivate myself, or distract myself from the suicidal contemplations. But I'm failing, obviously. Nothing interests me. It's like everyone and 'everything' hates me.
I WON'T settle for this. I don't want to die believing all this negativity. But the hard school life forces me. Depression makes it harder. Sleep paralysis, headaches and backaches. A general feeling of purposelessness, and you think I'm capable of concentrating on shit? Nope. I'm not strong enough to not get negative once I've been pushed too hard. A push to insanity.
I want help, I want a proper discussion about life and suicide. I have like zero motivation. No ambitions or goals in life. Perhaps that's a metaphorically psychopathic trait that I carry, having no goals in life. On the other hand, I don't want to kill myself with such an undeveloped opinion on stuff. I want to be educated about this. I'm too stupid and irrational, so treat me like a child who knows nothing. I don't wanna keep falling apart contemplating suicide all the time.
Am I worthless? You can't define that. Nobody but me can. But, as of recently, I feel my self-perception is negative, but true. What if I really am unimportant? Is it mere verisimilitude again, or could be that I deserve being depressed, sad, lonely and unappreciated?
I got a perfect 10 CGPA, yet my parents fail to appreciate me. Nobody does. Except a few, which seems like a token gesture any ways.
I've never had the feeling of being appreciated rightly, or being loved. It's something that I thought I deserved. Now I see how it is, I don't. It's a delusion that the brain passes to itself, that I deserve appreciation and love simply because everyone else gets it but me.
That's not the main thing though. I have lost interest in everything. No hobbies at all. Trying for 7 months to find something to motivate myself, or distract myself from the suicidal contemplations. But I'm failing, obviously. Nothing interests me. It's like everyone and 'everything' hates me.
I WON'T settle for this. I don't want to die believing all this negativity. But the hard school life forces me. Depression makes it harder. Sleep paralysis, headaches and backaches. A general feeling of purposelessness, and you think I'm capable of concentrating on shit? Nope. I'm not strong enough to not get negative once I've been pushed too hard. A push to insanity.
I want help, I want a proper discussion about life and suicide. I have like zero motivation. No ambitions or goals in life. Perhaps that's a metaphorically psychopathic trait that I carry, having no goals in life. On the other hand, I don't want to kill myself with such an undeveloped opinion on stuff. I want to be educated about this. I'm too stupid and irrational, so treat me like a child who knows nothing. I don't wanna keep falling apart contemplating suicide all the time.
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I got an email from Kohl's that I had a 40% off coupon for today and tomorrow only. It took me about an hour but I placed an order and got some great deals. I have been wanting a new dress. I like dressing up sometimes. My birthday is coming up and I have dinner plans at a nice restaurant. But, honestly, I'm a little out of control again. I went through this in the fall. I bought...
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Has anyone else noticed that clearly speaking and doing things intentionally is liberating because it helps combat the feeling of depression and a sense of hopelessness? Let me share a little more: in my experience, when those who have tried to project a hidden agenda that is obviously not aligned with integrity and well-being, it's best to be firm and speak clearly from self-awareness and...
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You are so young, life stretches before you with so many possibilities.
It is important to share your pain with people, as you are doing her.
Please talk to whoevre is willing to liste. And you definitely need to be treated for depression.
We are your friends. Always here for you.