Eventually everyone leaves this world. So you don't have to hurry that up, it will happen at some point.

There is a lot of crap in my heads, we grow a whole alternate reality of THINGS THAT ARE NOT SO. But when we stop feeding it with thought, this false reality collapses.

So, we need to stop our thoughts more often through activities that do so effectively.

Look for an activity that forces you to be in the Present, and in your body. For some people it can be stuff like rock climbing, but for me it's been internal martial arts.

*my heads = our heads

mal: Sure it is, and it causes cancer, and other diseases, to take hold. I agree with shihonage: Intense physical exercise really helps. It's not about masking negative thoughts. It's about putting those negative thoughts into an activity that will do us some good, build inner strength, inner happiness, inner peace.

Me, I love bicycling, pushing weight, playing golf, yoga, swimming.

Thanks for you comments; I am desperate enough to give it a try...

I went off my meds for a year, cause I was doing so well I didn't think I needed them anymore, and cause part of what was depressing me was changed (where I was working).

When it came back it hit with a vegeance, just like you say. My dog got ran over, I didn't know and for 3 days I was taking her to the vet, but she eventually died, We realized what happened the 3rd day, she died that night. It was horrible, I'd had her for 12 years and walked her every other day. Then my dad found out he has pulmonary fibrosis, and I was crushed. It took a physical effect on me as well, that is still happening. I keep getting UTI's that cause me to urinate blood, and having other female issues as well.

The depression got better when I went back on medication (Cymbalta) but then it hit me again on Friday, and hit hard, I didn't want to get up from the couch to do anything Sat, but my daughter came by and I had to be social, and then started feeling some better. I'm not out of the woods yet, but I'm trying.

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