You are very right when you say depression is a disease ......and can be extremely hard to live with .... I have had depression all my life I have never been with ought some level of depression .......I ended up in hospital one time I had to have ect because I was going down to far to fast when I went in I had stopped talking and stopped looking at anyone."........that's ware I learned I needed to talk I never used to talk ever .....I talk now let me tell you I never want to go back to that lace ....depression runs in my fathers family ....I have had good doctors and not so good doctors ......the one I have now is a good one but it took him a while to come around to understanding and believing me ....and what I had to tell him ......he is the best one I had ......I had one that was falling asleep all the time on me .....but I was paying for this treatment and I was getting my money's worth ......by this time I knew I needed to talk so I would talk louder so he would stay awake .....and I talked .....I was never going back to that place I had once gone .....I know that people who have never gone through depression have no clue what we go through ......no clue ......in here at least they can understand ....and I am here because I just needed that support ......I can't be the only one ....I am wondering if you might need to have your meds adjusted .....it might help ...I have had to have my meds adjusted a few times through this depression ....I feel you ....I truly do ...just make sure you get what ever help you need ....you need meds ....we can't always do it alone......and you relay need to talk ......everything needs to come out that is the one thing I learned that has kept me from going back to that dark place I found myself in when I landed in hospital ......every thing needs to come out all your pain all the pain you have ever gone through all the hurt you have kept inside needs to come out .....it is so important .....and let me tell you I talk to this day.......if something needs out I let it out ....this is so important in healing .....I hope you find the help you need ...this is a good place for you to come and talk .....here we know what we go through .....take good care of your self. Be good to your self ......I will keep you in my prayers ......god bless

Your definitely not alone here. I hope by some searching you can find the right person to talk too.
I too feel like you, I just want it to be over and hope sometimes by fate God will give me that peace. I have to say though that I try to get up the next day and see how and if it will be better than the last.
Hang in there and message me anytime. Hugs and prayers to you from me. Hope your days get a little better.

My friend always says (who also has a mental illness) that pain is inevitable but suffering is optional. This has helped me sometimes now. I hate when depression hits and seemingly won't go away, I understand how you feel! I hope you feel better soon....

I really like reading your post..it's like everything you say is how im feeling..i just can't seem to express myself during this battle...Thanks

Been there done that my brother! A few months back my primary doc gave me Klonopin and that seemed to help. Yesterday she upped my Prozac to 40mg so I am hoping that helps even more. Before my meds were straight I was a complete mess. Couldn't even get out of bed except that I had to work and hated every minute of every day.

Stay strong bro! You know I'm with you my friend!!

Yes. This is a disease. I feel you. I look forward to the end of the day and dread having to get up the next morning.

I have had a couple of lousy psychiatrists, one that was great and now a new one that I think is going to be good and will work at getting meds right. I also finally had my first therapy session in years this week. Last psychologist kind of damaged me a bit, so it took a lot to go back.

For me, I think the therapy is a must. I just have such a hopeless outlook that anything will change and am paralyzed by this crap. I can't do anything. I plan to try hard to follow the therapists suggestions since I obviously have not handled anything well on my own. I have nothing to lose by trying it and just can't continue on the path I have been on.

I agree talking is important. I rant, rave and whine in my journal. I have a lot of anger issues apparently along with self hate. The journal lets me feel free to scream about it all.

I understand what you feel and keep hoping for the end. I just try to keep in mind others have been here and climbed out of the Hell. Maybe, maybe we can too.

Much love for you. Hold on and keep fighting for the right doctors. There is someone that will help. I hate that you have seen so many without anyone helping.

Yep,, personally I don't know what it's categorized as but I swear if I have one more person say, 'oh yes I feel anxious and down sometimes too..' No, it's not just being down because someone's mad at you or you lost a game or something.. it's ongoing. But you really don't need to explain yourself to people, if you want to then that's okay but there is no need to feel pressed to give people a good enough reason. Hugs.

Thanks to all who posted, I appreciate you! I am glad to know I am not alone! Fighting this battle 24/7...is so draining! Especially if you have fought if for years, sought help-to no avail, etc....Yeah...I so can not stand those professionals who are giving us this, "Yeah, your brakes on the car do not work, but hey, your horn is loud!" That is the attitude they have! I wish no harm or bad on no one...BUT...I do wish the people who are so misguided and uninformed about depression could have it...Chronic, as I do...for one month!